The north germanic languages

I just stumbled across this interesting video, so in case you’re interested in Swedish, Norwegian, Danish and such you might enjoy watching this one 🙂

As some of you might know I’m practicing Swedish every now and then which I greatly enjoy and which enables me to understand more languages like norwegian or danish!

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More #wip SneakPeek


Just leaving this here as a little sneak peek of what I’m up to at the moment…

It shall be glorious 😀

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#havamal xD



i can’t xD

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Am I a witch?

I got this question several times now and I gotta admit I don’t really know 😀

How can I not know if I am something or not? Well…

The first thing that comes to my mind when I’m asked if I’m a witch is No. I’m certainly not. I’m not what people think a witch is like and I don’t perceive myself or think of me as a witch. Also I’m not in a coven and I don’t follow the wiccan path and neither do I look like a hag nor like some sexy vamp like lady who seduces basically everyone. So that’s that.

But I do in fact do witchy things, I study plants and their effects, I have talismans going on, I chant, I know how to cleanse and protect places and items, I’m considerate in the things I do and say because stuff comes back to you, you know, and I try to put happy thoughts into my works of art.

Whenever I stumble upon the most flamboyant witches online they created this mystery around themselves. It often seems like they do things differently than I do. Some of them pretend to live in a magical hut, playing with tarot cards every day and chanting and blessing all the way without having bills to pay, dentist appointments or a leaking toilet. It’s like some of them put out a selection and sprinkle it up a bit. Which is totally fine. You do you. But I’m not like that.

When people meet me in person, being pagan is never the first thing I mention about myself, because why would they even want to know that? Some suspect me being a witch though, which amuses me in return because maybe I’m giving off a certain vibe and I’m just in denial, who knows? 😉

But in the end I don’t feel like I should label myself as a witch or a völva or anything like that because that’s not what I mainly consist of. It’d be like assuming I’d be a lesbian because I like man-stuff, or assuming I’ve a certain body shape or mindset just because I like video games.

Am I a witch? Maybe sometimes. But I think labels don’t fit me, not anymore. I do so many different things daily, that it’s impossible to find a fitting one. I love heavy metal, but there’re rap songs I like. I love being out in the forests but I’m also a huge nerd, sitting at home, playing games and reading books about archaeology. And when I think of divination with tarot cards or pendulums I think of seeking an answer from within myself and not so much with the help of ghosts. Although I think ghosts are somewhat real, like I wrote in an earlier article.

I’m just that weirdly clad chick on the internet, that stays up too late, works at weird times, rambles about all sorts of sciency stuff, that loves her cats and talks to them and enjoys cooking and caring for her little (but growing!) community.

Maybe everything alltogether, even denying, makes me a witch. But putting a label on myself is weird and confusing for me, I don’t even consider myself as a type of “wise woman”. I’m just me, doing me-things, and sometimes leaving my me-space to see me-friends. A label would limit me to only being a witch, only being a woman, only being crafty. But I wanna throw all my shit at you, without limiting myself. You need to see my photos, listen to my audio plays, answer my silly questions, accept that I sometimes claim to be a duck, read my texts, hear me sing and so much more to grasp the real me. And that’s true for every single person. Labels are meh, except they’re good for hashtags on Instagram for you to find me easier 😉

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A sneak peak…

…of what’s going on in my lair right now 😀


wip shaman staff

This shall be a mighty shaman staff… thingamajig… Promise, it’s gonna be cool once it’s done! 😀


Have a nice day, guys!

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Runic hair beads!

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These beads are so rad, I can’t wait to put them in my hair 😀

In case you also feel this strange urge, I can help you out. The only thing you’d need to do is click either on the picture or this link right here to get this whole set of beads for 39,99 €

24 Piece Runic Hair Bead Set


I’d definitely make some more money off of them by selling them as single pieces of 5 €/each but this sale is part of my little campaign to give my subscribers something back. We already had a giveaway for a beautiful celtic necklace and now you can get your hands on a whole set for an unbeatable price! PLUS: You also get a handy tool which helps you installing the beads in your hair and beard! But worry not, there’s still a giveaway to come on my Instagram in the near future! I’m just hella busy 😀

Hope to see some of you guys at GamesCom 2018 in Cologne, Germany, August 21st – 25th 🙂

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Something that will definitely brighten your day (pt. 1)

This chubby raccoon harassing a cat 😀

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Home sweet home!

Behold my beautiful home! A place, where the Bructeri once lived, by the way, which is the native tribe of the famous priestess Veleda 🙂

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I have an axe!

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I have an axe! And the axe even got a backstory! Yay! 😀

Let’s start at the beginning… My dad worked as an artisan and heating engineer, repairing and making lots of stuff, using all sorts of tools. I got it all inherited from his side 😉 And so it happened that he liked to have all sorts of tools at home, drill machines, chisels, saws, you name it. I also inherited most of that stuff, too. And since we had real christmas trees back in the days, we would also have to get rid of them at some point after christmas. So my dad brought home this cool axe which was bigger than me at that time. Here’s a comparison photo with my hand:

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So we happily lived there in our flat until one day a neighbour moved in, and this neighbour was not only the owner of a huge-ass dog, but also batshit crazy. So this axe was stored right behind our door in case he would knock on our door or enter our flat like the aggressive alcoholic that he was. Luckily this guy vanished as quickly as he had shown up and nobody had to get chopped into pieces 😉

It’s heavy as fuck and the handle is broken at the top but I don’t want to repair it to use it, I want to retire it on my wall, giving it a little viking makeover.

It shall be glorious! 😀

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Hand of the King progress – July 18

Here’s my progress ❤ As some of you may know I’m sculpting the Hand of the King-brooch from Game of Thrones at the moment and that’s how far I’ve got until today, the beginning of July. It’s completely handsculpted and I’m going to fire it in my kiln and afterwards polish it so it’ll hopefully look all silvery (white bronze) with black details!

I hope I’m gonna be able to fasten the needle at the back without being too destructive but also avoiding it falling off after some time. The blade on the left still needs some work so it’ll appear sharper and not so bended anymore and I plan to refine the swirly pattern, too 🙂


Have a nice day!

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Can you swim in chainmail?

I mean, could the vikings swim in their chainmail or did they just drown when they fell overboard?

Find out in this video made by my friends over at Kaptorga what happened when they tried it themselves!


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What’s up?

I love giving you guys a bit of an overview how my little business is growing and apart from new products I also love to write about what I plan and what has changed recently… so here we go 🙂

First of all: I want to get a bit more into fantasy again. As some might know I looted a shipload of books (which were all for free, thanks to the amazing donor!) and since all of these were part of my youth in some form I thought I could not only read them alone in my lair with purring cats on my lap – no! I could also review them! Sure these books are old and probably not even available anymore but there’s always the little possibility of grabbing them on Amazon or Ebay or we could just indulge in old memories of adventures long passed 😀 Either way, I’d love to blog and vlog about them. It’s mainly Pen & Paper – RPG stuff accompanying the roleplay systems like (A)D&D like Dragonlance or The Dark Eye, but also Forgotten Realms and others! Plus I already had loads of books before and maybe these are interesting aswell. They’re mainly in german but some are also dutch or english and I’ll of course give you the correct english information for them. We’ll see 🙂

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My amazing best friend owns a drone with an action camera. And of course I’d like borrow it to make some beautiful videos soaring through the forest! But not only that, I also just looted a GoPro head strap to fasten the camera to myself so that you can come with me while I sneak through the trees 😀 This is hopefully gonna be fun and I’m also planning on using it while crafting stuff so you can see in detail what I do!

I also uploaded a little video of me singing. How awkward! 😀

But I’d like to be more musical in the future. Singing is a part of my life for as long as I remember and there are some amazing songs out there, fantasy and pagan alike, which I would love to work on. I never took lessons so please, please bear with me 😀

Speaking of more videos, I’m also sharing my youtube videos on IGTV, the new video platform Instagram just launched. I still have to figure out how all of that stuff really works but I hope I can bring my content to all of you guys, regardless of where you preferably watch videos.

Oh, and I bought me a pair of elf ears 😀 For shits and giggles and maybe for later this year. There’s a small chance I’m gonna need them 😉

So I started my youtube thing in may/june this year but I didn’t get to record the let’s play videos as originally intended. But they’re coming! I swear! 😀

Right now we are 5266 people over on my Instagram and we’re growing! I’m really happy about that! If you want to you can join me by clicking the link and following my profile:

I also thought about merch. Wait a minute, I’m not that kind of self-centered person who wants to see their face on everyone’s t-shirts xD But I did think of some pagan stuff you could totally wear every day without getting into trouble with your employer or your nosy neighbours, if you know what I mean. Something you’ll occasionally get a friendly nod for without being too striking or aggressive. While I do have a spreadshirt shop (which you can find here: (German) and here: (USA)) I’d love to make things less complicated. There’s one shop for Europe and one for the US and I totally lost track of both at some point. Plus I only get to keep 1 or 2 € from a 25 € t-shirt sale. I’m sure I could make t-shirts for way less than that if I used the printing service right around the corner! Some of my designs are even kinda fun 😉

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And this is why I’m going to need my own shop system in the long run. Etsy is great because you can just put everything into the form and that’s it. But there’s a restriction of what you can sell there. I’d love to sell stuff for other people aswell, people who make great art and there’s always a bit of an uncertainty of how to handle everything. Also there are great items out there which are factory made, like books or tarot cards I really love and I’m sure you would, too. But they’re unfortunately neither made by me nor by a fellow crafter, so they can’t be sold there. So I really gotta get into how to set up a shop system that has the ability to charge credit cards, bank accounts and paypal accounts, being connected to my business bank account then. Plus I could easier make discounts or put up some charity sales which I also want to do in the future!

Places I’d love to try out in the future are Amazon Handmade, ebay and Dawanda, mostly for the sake of reach, but a shop hosted by me is definitely the most attractive alternative 🙂

Crafty shit I still have lying around are some plastic drinking horns, moss, faux fur, some boots I want to give a make-over, tiny antlers, big antlers, pine cones, wooden disks and stones for more rune sets and a shipload of leather which I will probably turn into a costume, some artificial dreadlocks and other hair stuff for a shamanic raven-esque headpiece, feathers, huge amber-colored glass beads and some clay, the latter will hopefully be turned into some incense stick holder soon-ish 😀 Also I have this huge pile of wire cluttering my desk, which isn’t jewelry-grade but hopefully will work as interior decoration in its future life, since I still want to make some dreamcatchers.

So I guess that’s it for now!

Have a nice day 🙂


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New Discord!

So I got myself a Discord server the other day, mainly for shits and giggles. I’ve no special idea what to do with it yet besides from chatting occasionally with whomever joins it and having it as a platform for people to have fun on.

Feel free to join ^^




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[Music] Therion – Ljusalfheim


Something for the upcoming midsummer nights 🙂

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My pile of shame

I’m a huge nerd. And by huge I really mean ginormous. And since I want pagan- and fantasy themed games to be a part of my Youtube Channel I decided to drop my list of games here. Have fun reading through it! I’m going to link the titles to their according playlists as soon as I get ready recording 😉

1914 – The Great War (PC)
A Boy and his Blob (NES)
Afrika Korps vs. Desert Rats (PC)
Age of Empires (PC)
Age of Mythology – Extended Edition (PC)
Age of Wonders III (PC)
Age of Wonders – Shadow Magic (PC)
Akalabeth: World of Doom (PC)
Alan Wake’s American Nightmare (PC)
Alex Kidd in Shinobi World (Sega Mastersystem)
Alfred Chicken (Amiga CD32)
Alien Breed 2 – Assault (PC)
Alone in the Dark – The New Nightmare (PS1)
Alpha Prime (PC)
Angst – Rahz’s Revenge (PC)
Anno 1404 (PC)
Anno 1404: Venice (PC)
Anno 1503 (PS)
Anno 1602 (PC)
Anno 1701 (PC)
Anstoss Action – Die Fußballsimulation (PC)
Anstoss 3 – Der Fußballmanager (PC)
Archon – Classic (PC)
Arma 2 (PC)
Arma Tactics (PC)
Arma – Cold War Assault (PC)
Arma – Gold Edition (PC)
Armored Warfare – Beta (PC)
Arsenal of Democracy (PC)
Ascension to the Throne (PC)
Assassin’s Creed (PC)
Assassin’s Creed – Revelations (PC)
Asteroid Belt (Atari)
Avenum – Escape from the Pit (PC)
Bad Rats (PC)
Baldur’s Gate – Enhanced Edition (PC)
Baldur’s Gate II – Enhanced Edition (PC)
Baldur’s Gate II – Schatten von Amn (Collectors Edition) (PC)
Barnyard Blaster (Atari XE)
Batman – Arkham Asylum GOTY Edition (PC)
Batman Returns (Sega Mega-CD)
Battle Arena Toshinden (PS1)
Battle Isle 3 – Schatten des Imperators (PC)
Battle Isle Phase 4 – Incubation (PC)
Battletoads (Amiga CD32)
Battletoads – Battle Maniacs (SNES)
Black & White (PC)
Beneath a Steel Sky (PC)
Beyblade (PS1)
Big Hurt Baseball (SNES)
Bio Menace (PC)
BioShock (PC)
Birth of America (PC)
Blackguards (PC)
Blood Bowl – Legendary Edition (PC)
Borderlands (PS3)
Breath of Death VII (PC)
Bridge Project (PC)
Bump ‘n’ Burn (Amiga CD32)
Burnout Paradise – The ultimate Box (PC)
Bushido Blade (PS1)
Buzz! – Das große Quiz (PS2)
Call of Duty (PC)
Call of Duty – United Offensive (Expansion Pack) (PC)
Call of Duty 2 (PC)
Call of Duty 4 – Modern Warfare (PC)
Call of Duty – World at War (PC)
Call of Juarez – Gunslinger (PC)
Carcassonne (PC)
Cardinal Syn (PS1)
Carmageddon TDR 2000 (PC)
Carrier Strike Force (PC)
Catan – Die erste Insel (PC)
ChuChu Rockket! (DC)
Cities XL Platinum (PC)
CivCity: Rome (PC)
Civilization – Call to Power (PC)
Civilization II – Test of Time (PC)
Civil War 2 – Generals (PC)
Close Combat – Modern Tactics (PC)
Close Combat – Last Stand Arnhem (PC)
Command & Conquer (N64)
Command & Conquer – Der Tiberiumkonflikt (PC)
Command & Conquer Teil 1: Der Tiberiumkonflikt (PS1)
Command & Conquer – Alarmstufe Rot (PS1)
Command & Conquer Teil 2: Alarmstufe Rot (PC)
Command & Conquer Teil 3: Operation Tiberian Sun (PC)
Command & Conquer: Red Alert 3 – Uprising (PC)
Commander – Europe at War (PC)
Commander – The Great War (PC)
Commandos – Im Auftrag der Ehre (PC)
Company of Heroes (PC)
Company of Heroes – New Steam Version)
Company of Heroes – Opposing Fronts
Conflict of Heroes – Awakening the Bear / Operation Barbarossa 1941 (PC)
Confrontation (PC)
Conquest of Elysium 3 (PC)
Contagion (PC)
Counter Strike – Global Offensive (PC)
Counter Strike – Source (PC)
Crossing Souls (Demo) (PC)
Crusader Kings Complete (PC)
Crusader Kings II (PC)
Crysis (PC)
Crysis II (PC)
Crysis II – Maximum Edition (PC)
CSI – Hard Evidence (PC)
CSI: NY – The Game (PC)
Cthulhu saves the World (PC)
Cultures – Die Entdeckung Vinlands (PC)
Cultures 2 – Die Tore Asgards (PC)
Dark Reign (PC)
Darkest Hour: A Hearts of Iron Game (PC)
Day of Defeat (PC)
Dead Space (PC)
Deathmatch Classic (PC)
Defy Gravity (PC)
Der Clou (PC)
Der Herr der Ringe – Die Rükkehr des Königs (PC)
Deus Ex – Human Revolution (PC)
Diablo (PC)
Diablo II (PC)
Die Gilde 2 (PC)
Die Sims – Das volle Leben (PC)
Die Sims – Mittelalter (PC)
Die Sims 3 (PC)
Die Völker (PC)
Dino Crisis (PS1)
Dino Crisis (DC)
Dino Crisis 2 (PS1)
Disciples II – Gallean’s Return (PC)
Disciples II – Rise of the Elves (PC)
Divinity – Original Sin (PC)
Divinity II – Developers Cut (PC)
Dominions 4 (PC)
Donkey Kong (Atari)
Donkey Kong 64 (N64)
Double Dragon (Sega Mastersystem)
Dragon Age – Origins (PC)
Drakensang – Am Fluss der Zeit (PC)
Dream Pinball 3D (PC)
Dune II (PC)
Dungeon Keeper (PC)
Dungeon Keeper Gold (PC)
Dungeon Keeper 2 (PC)
Dynamite Cop (DC)
Dynasty Warriors (PS1)
Eador – Genesis (PC)
Eador Masters of the Broken World (PC)
Earth 2160 (PC)
Eastern Front – Der Rußland-Feldzug (PC)
Ecco The Dolphin (Sega MegaDrive)
ECW – Anarchy Rulz (PS1)
ECW – Hardcore Revolution (PS1)
Elven Legacy (PC)
Elven Legacy – Magic (PC)
Elven Legacy – Ranger (PC)
Elven Legacy – Siege (PC)
Empire – Total War (PC)
Eschalon: Book I (PC)
Europa Universalis (PC)
Europa Universalis III (PC)
Evil Dead – Hail to the King (PC)
Evil Dead- Hail to the King (PS1)
F.E.A.R. 2 – Project Origin (PC)
F.E.A.R. 3 (PC)
Fallen Enchantress – Legendary Heroes (PC)
Fallout (PC)
Fallout Tactics (PC)
Fallout II (PC)
Fallout III (PC)
Fantasy Commander – Eukarion Wars (PC)
Fantasy Wars (PC)
FarCry (PC)
FIFA 98 (PC)
FIFA Football 2002 (PS1)
FIFA Soccer 96 (PS1)
Fighting Spirit (Amiga)
Final Fantasy VII (PS1)
Final Fantasy X (PS2)
Final Fantasy XII (PS2)
Final Fight (Sega Mega-CD)
Flight of the Amazon Queen (PC)
Forgotten Realms – Demon Stone
Forgotten Realms – Neverwinter Nights (PC)
Fox & Goat (Atari)
Frederic: Evil strikes back (PC)
Frederic: Resurrection of Music (PC)
Full Spectrum Warrior (PC)
Galactic Civilizations I – Ultimate Edition (PC)
Galactic Civilizations II – Ultimate Edition (PC)
Galaxian (Atari2600)
Game of Thrones (PC)
Gloom (Amiga CD32)
Gorasul – Das Vermächtnis des Drachen (PC)
Grand Theft Auto 2 (PS1)
Grandia (PS1)
Grandia II (PS2)
Great Big War Game (PC)
Guacamelee! Gold Edition (PC)
Guild Wars 2 (PC)
Guitar Hero (PS2)
Guitar Hero II (PS2)
Guitar Hero Metallica (PS2)
Half-Life (PC)
Half-Life – Counter Strike (PC)
Half-Life 2 (PC)
Half-Life 2 – Episode One (PC)
Half-Life 2 – Episode Two (PC)
Half Life 2 – Lost Coast (PC)
Half Life 2 – Blue Shift (PC)
Half Life 2 – Opposing Force
Hearthstone (PC)
Hearts of Iron II – Complete (PC)
Hearts of Iron III (PC)
Hell (PC)
Hello Neighbor! (Alpha) (PC)
Hell yeah! (PC)
Heroes of Might & Magic V (PC)
Highborn (PC)
Hitman 2 – Silent Assassin (PC)
Hitman – Blood Money (PC)
Hugo (PC)
Indiana Jones – Adventure Kit (PC)
… and the Last Crusade
… and the Fate of Atlantis
… und der Turm von Babel
Imperial Glory (PC)
Iron Sword – Wizards and Warriors II (NES)
Jade Empire – Special Edition (PC)
Jagged Alliance Flashback (PC)
Jagged Alliance Gold (PC)
Jagged Alliance – Kampf um Metavira (PC)
Jagged Alliance 2 – Gold Pack (PC)
Jagged Alliance 2 – Unfinished Business (PC)
Jagged Alliance 2 – Wildfire (PC)
Just Cause (PC)
Justice League – Task Forces (Sega MegaDrive)
King Arthur – The Role-playing Wargame (PC)
King’s Bounty – The Legend (PC)
King’s Quest 7 – The Princeless Bride
King’s Quest 8 – Maske der Ewigkeit (PC)
Knights of Pen and Paper +1 (PC)
Kung Fu Master (Atari)
Labyrinthine Dreams (PC)
Last Word (PC)
Left 4 Dead (PC)
Left 4 Dead 2 (PC)
Legacy of Kain – Soul Reaver (PS1)
Legend of Grimrock (PC)
Legends of Eisenwald (PC)
Lilly Adventure (Atari)
Lords of Xulima (PC)
Lure of the Temptress (PC)
Majesty 2 (PC)
Make My Video – INXS (Sega Mega-CD)
Making History – The Calm & The Storm (PC)
Masters of the Universe – He-Man: Defender of Grayskull (PS2)
Mass Effect (PC)
Mass Effect 2 (PC)
Mario Kart 64 (N64)
Mech Warrior 2 (PC)
Mech Warrior 3 (PC)
Medal of Honor (Multiplayer) (PC)
Medal of Honor (Singleplayer) (PC)
Medieval Total War – Viking Invasion (Expansion) (PC)
Medieval II – Total War (PC)
Men of War – Assault Squad (PC)
Mega Games I (Sega MegaDrive)
… Super Hang-On
… World Cup Italia 94
… Columns
Metro 2033 (PC)
Minecraft (PC)
Mirror’s Edge (PC)
Mission 3,000 (Atari)
MoonBase Commander (PC)
Morphopolis (PC)
Mortal Kombat Mythologies – Sub-Zero (N64)
Mortal Kombat – Special Forces (PS1)
Motocross Mania 2 (PS1)
Mount & Blade – Warband (PC)
Napoleon – Total War (PC)
Naval War – Arctic Circle (PC)
NBA Live 96 (SNES)
Need for Speed III – Hot Pursuit (PC)
Need for Speed – Underground (PC)
Need for Speed – Underground (PS2)
Neverwinter Nights 2 (PC)
Nexuiz (PC)
Nightmare Creatures (PS1)
Nuclear Strike (PC)
Oddworld – Abe’s Exodus (PS1)
Operation Barbarossa – The Struggle for Russia (PC)
Operation Flashpoint – Cold War Crisis (PC)
Overblood 2 (PS1)
Overload (Playable Teaser) (PC)
Panzer Corps (PC)
Panzer Corps – Grand Campaign 1939 – 1945 (PC)
Panzer Corps – Wehrmacht (PC)
Panzer General – Unternehmen Barbarossa (PC)
Panzer General IV – Western Assault (PC)
Patrician III (PC)
Payday – The Heist (PC)
Pierre le Chef – Out to Lunch (Amiga CD32)
Pirates, Vikings & Knights II (PC)
Pokémon – Goldene Edition (GBC)
Poket Fighter (PS1)
Police Quest SWAT (PC)
Police Quest SWAT 2 (PC)
Pool of Radiance – Ruins of Myth Drannor (PC)
Populous – The Beginning (PC)
Portal (PC)
Portal 2 (PC)
Pride of Nations (PC)
Prince of Persia (Sega Mega-CD)
Privateer 2 – The Darkening (PC)
Pygmy (Atari)
Racing Simulation 2 (DC)
Railroad Tycoon II (PS1)
RAW – Realms of Ancient War (PC)
RealSports Volleyball (Atari 2600)
Red Orchestra 2 – Heroes of Stalingrad (PC)
Resident Evil (PS1)
Resident Evil (Sega Saturn)
Resident Evil – Code Veronica (DC)
Resident Evil 2 (PS1)
Resident Evil 3 – Nemesis (PS1)
Resident Evil 3 – Nemesis (DC)
Ricochet (PC)
Rising Storm/Red Orchestra 2 Multiplayer (PC)
Rome – Total War (PC)
Rome – Total War – Alexander (PC)
Runaway – A road adventure (PC)
Sang-Froid: Tales of Werewolves (PC)
S.T.A.L.K.E.R. – Call of Pripyat (PC)
S.T.A.L.K.E.R. – Clear Sky (PC)
S.T.A.L.K.E.R. – Shadow of Chernobyl (PC)
Sea & Dogs – An epic adventure at sea (PC)
Secret of Mana (SNES)
Sega Rally Championship (DC)
Sensible Soccer (Amiga CD32)
Shadowgrounds (PC)
Shadowgrounds – Survivor (PC)
Shadowrun Returns (PC)
Shadowrun – Dragon Fall (Director’s Cut) (PC)
Shadow Warrior Classic Complete (PC)
Shattered Union (PC)
Shenmue (DC)
Sherlock Holmes vs. Jack the Ripper (PC)
Sherlock Holmes – Nemesis (PC)
Sherlock Holmes – The Awakened (Remastered) (PC)
Sherlock Holmes – The Mystery of The Mummy (PC)
Sherlock Holmes – The Mystery of The Persian Carpet (PC)
Sherlock Holmes – The Secret of the Silver Earring (PC)
Sid Meier’s Ace Patrol (PC)
Sid Meier’s Civilization III
Sid Meier’s Civilization IV (PC)
Sid Meier’s Civilization IV – Beyond the Sword (Expansion) (PC)
Sid Meier’s Civilization IV – Colonization (PC)
Sid Meier’s Civilization IV – Warlords (Expansion) (PC)
Sid Meier’s Civilization V (PC)
Sid Meier’s Gettysburg! (PC)
Sid Meier’s Pirates! (PC)
Silent Storm (PC)
Silent Storm Sentinels (PC)
Silver (PC)
Silver (DC)
SimCopter (PC)
SimCity 2000
SimCity 4 Deluxe (PC)
SingStar 80s (PS2)
Skeleton Krew (Amiga CD32)
Skies of Arcadia (DC)
SkySaga – Infinite Isles – Alpha (PC)
Soldier of Fortune II – Double Helix (PC)
Sonic Adventure (DC)
Sonic – The Hedgehog (Sega Mastersystem)
Sonic – The Hedgehog (Sega MegaDrive)
Sonic 3 (Sega MegaDrive)
Soulblade (PS1)
Soulcalibur II (PS2)
Soulcalibur IV (XBOX360)
Soviet Strike (PS1)
SpaceCorn (PC)
Sports Champions (PS3)
Sports Champions 2 (PS3)
Starbound (PC)
Star Craft (PC)
Star Craft – ScumCraft (Expansion) (PC)
Star Craft II (PC)
Star Craft Brood War (Expansion) (PC)
Stardew Valley (PC)
Stargunner (PC)
Star Trek – 25th Anniversary (PC)
Star Trek – Armada (PC)
Star Trek – Beyond the Nexus (GB)
Star Trek – Judgment Rites (PC)
Star Trek – New Worlds (PC)
Star Trek – Starfleet Academy (PC)
Star Trek – Starfleet Command (PC)
Star Trek – Starfleet Command Volume II – Empires at War (PC)
Star Trek The Next Generation – A Final Unity (PC)
Star Trek The Next Generation – Birth of the Federation (PC)
Star Wars Episode 1 – Jedi Power Battles (PS1)
Star Wars – Force Commander (PC)
Star Wars – Jedi Knight (PC)
Star Wars – Jedi Knight – Mysteries of the Sith (Expansion) (PC)
Star Wars – Knights of the Old Republic (PC)
Star Wars – Knights of the Old Republic II (PC)
Star Wars – Shadows of the Empire (PC)
Star Wars – Shadow of the Empire (N64)
Star Wars – The Old Republic (PC)
Stealth Inc 2 (PC)
Steel Panthers III – Brigadekommando 1938 – 1999 (PC)
Storm of Arrows – Late Medieval Europe at War (PC)
Strategic War Command (PC)
Strategic War in Europe (PC)
Street Fighter IV (PC)
Street Figher X Tekken (PS3)
Sniper Elite V2 (PC)
Solar War (PC)
Space Hulk (PC)
Sudden Strike (+ Additional Missions) (PC)
Sunrider: Mask of Arcadius (PC)
Super Ice Hockey (SNES)
Super Mario Bros. (NES)
Super Mario Bros. 2 (NES)
Super Mario Kart (SNES)
Super Mario World (SNES)
Super Tennis (Sega Mastersystem)
Syndicate (Amiga CD32)
Syndicate Wars (PS1)
Taz-Mania (Sega MegaDrive)
Team Fortress 2 (PC)
Teenagent (PC)
Tekken (PS1)
Tekken 2 (PS1)
Tekken 3 (PS1)
Tekken 4 (PS2)
Tekken 5 (PS2)
Tenchu 2 (PS1)
The Bureau – XCOM Declassified(PC)
The Darkness (PC)
The Dukes of Hazzard (PS1)
The Elder Scrolls III – Morrowind (PC)
The Forest (PC)
The Guild – Gold Edition (PC)
The Lord of the Rings – War in the North (PC)
The Ninja (Sega Mastersystem)
The Political Machine 2012 (PC)
The War of the Worlds (PC)
The X-Files (PC)
Theme Hospital (PC)
Theme Park World (PC)
Time Commando (PC)
Time Crisis II (PS2)
Tiny Toon Adventures – Toonenstein Geisterstunde (PS1)
Tiny Toon Adventures – Buster’s Hidden Treasure (Sega MegaDrive)
Toca – World Touring Cars (PS1)
Tom Clancy’s Rainbow Six (PC)
Tom Clancy’s Rainbow Six – Lone Wolf (PS1)
Tom Clancy’s Rainbow Six – Rogue Spear (PS1)
Tom Clancy’s Rainbow Six – Rogue Spear – Black Thorn (PC)
Tomb Raider (PC)
Tomb Raider – Die Chronik (PS1)
Tomb Raider – Die Chronik (DC)
Tomb Raider II – Starring Lara Croft (PC)
Tomb Raider III – Adventures of Lara Croft (PC)
Tomb Raider III – Adventures of Lara Croft (PS1)
Tomb Raider IV – The last Revelation (DC)
Tony Hawk’s Pro Skater 2 (PS1)
Torchlight (PC)
Torchlight II (PC)
Treasure Adventure Game (PC)
Trove – Beta (PC)
Tropico 3 – Steam Special Edition (PC)
Turok – Dinosaur Hunter (N64)
Turok 2 – Seeds of Evil (N64)
Turtles – Tournament Fighters (SNES)
Tyrian 2000 (PC)
Ultima IV (PC)
Ultima VIII (PC)
Ultima Worlds of Adventure 2: Martian Dreams (PC)
Unreal Tournament (PC)
Vampire the Masquerade – Bloodlines (PC)
Vermeer – Die Kunst zu erben (PC)
Warcraft II – Tides of Darkness (PC)
Warcraft 3 – Reign of Chaos (PC)
Warlords – Battlecry (PC)
Wasteland 2 (PC)
Waverace (N64)
WCW Nitro (PC)
WCW vs. nWo – World Tour (N64)
Wiggles (PC)
Wing Commander III – Heart of the Tiger (PC)
Wing Commander – Prophecy (PC)
World of Illusion – Starring Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck (Sega MegaDrive)
World of Tanks (PC)
World of Warcraft (PC)
World of Warcraft – Cataclysm (PC)
World of Warcraft – Legion (PC)
World of Warcraft – Mists of Pandaria (PC)
World of Warcraft – The Burning Crusade (PC)
World of Warcraft – Wrath of the Lich King (PC)
Worlds of Ultima: The Savage Empire (PC)
Worms (PS1)
Worms – Armageddon (PC)Worms Blast (PC)
Worms – Reloaded (PC)
WWF Attitude – Get it! (DC)
WWF Attitude – Get it! (N64)
WWF Rage Cage (Sega Mega-CD)
WWF Raw (Sega MegaDrive 32x)
WWF Royal Rumble (SNES)
WWF Royal Rumble (Sega MegaDrive)
WWF Smackdown! (PS1)
WWF Smackdown 2 – Know your Role (PS1)
WWF Super Wrestle Mania (SNES)
WWF Super Wrestle Mania (Sega MegaDrive)
WWF War Zone (N64)
WWF Wrestle Mania – The Arcade Game (PC)
WWF Wrestle Mania – The Arcade Game (SNES)

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[Podcast] The muscle guy incident

Being smart is a virtue for me, which is why I give scammers a hard time 😉



Have a great day guys!

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The wall-nut

Shit I find funny af 😀

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So I will be doing podcasts in the future!

I know, ain’t nobody got time to read all the shit I write, so maybe it’s a good idea to make some of my texts into podcasts, or so I thought 😀

That’s the first one, I hope you’ll enjoy it 🙂



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[Music] Pinkzebra – We won’t stop dreaming

This goes out to my best friend.


And we’re fucking badass together because we have eachother. \m/

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[Vlog] New Shop stuff + what happens when your order gets a bit delayed?

Yay, another little random vlog!

Life happens while you’re busy making other plans, so it happened that I sent an order out too late and since I sometimes cannot prevent stuff like this I think I came up with a little method to make up for the delay.

Plus: New shop arrivals!

Plus: The derpiest youtube thumbnail I ever uploaded 😀

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Charmin <3


That’s too good not to share xD

#assguardian ❤

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I’m a nerd.

And I’ll continue to post blog entries with this first sentences for quite a long time because I enjoy being a nerd so much. 😀

I play Pen & Paper and video games situated in the classic and not so classic fantasy settings, I collect all sorts of mythical, fantasy and historical stuff, there are dozens and dozens of fantasy books, artworks, statues, comics and what not sitting all around me and I even worked for a company who invented a great fantasy setting, namely Blizzard Entertainment. I breathe this stuff. Fantasy was what defined my childhood in the form of TV-Shows, toys and fairy tales and it just amazingly fits into my life and love of nature. The music I listen to is more often than not inspired by mythology and what people perceive to be elfish, celtic or viking.

While I grew up there were still some people left who were skeptical about letting your mind wander and the perception of indulging in fantasy literature or pen & paper games was a bit more negative, making assumptions about kids getting into demon summoning and being influenced to join cults. Words like “Dungeon Master” made grown-ups uncomfortable, especially when they located dungeons in the BDSM field which was way more of a taboo than nowadays in 2018. I was at the age of 14 when the first LARP (Live Action Role Playing) was held in close proximity to my home and I considered going there. My parents found this idea rather odd and I ended up not going until a few years later, but the idea of going to some sort of camping with (new) friends, being creative and playing a bit of a role was really appealing to me and never ceased to be.

For the lack of permission and enough money to go on a LARP I started getting into table top games – which was Warhammer 40k at that time. (And yeah, I know that’s more on the Sci-Fi side. Later me bought the Games Workshop LotR-Stuff, k? K.) Lucky me just sniped a Tyranid codex off of ebay which hadn’t been released in germany yet and I started to paint some figures and we played around with them a bit. People got really creative, making little landscapes and one guy’s dad was a glazier so some really awesome icebergs were created with scrap materials. At that point my parents had accepted that their daughter had a weird taste in leisure activities and that her choice of toys was a bit … off.

Yes, I painted this beauty myself. xD

But they were quite content with the fact that I was more of a homebody and less of a typical girl hitting puberty and wanting to go to clubs or hang out with all the wrong boys.  Don’t get me wrong. Almost all my friends were male. But the interaction never went the way parents would condemn and that was awesome 😀 Nobody was interested in any romantic ensnarements and we just could play games, hang around and talk about whatever unfunny and gory nonsense we wanted. Ah, the good old times 😀

Later, my interest in computer and video games grew bigger and epic stuff like Final Fantasy, Diablo, Warcraft, Dune and many many others found their ways into my life. There were Nightmare Creatures, there was Street Fighter and Tekken, an abundance of newly born franchises and one hit wonders. Some, like Parasite Eve and Silent Hill, were quite scary. Some, like Final Fantasy, were plain exciting.

Some very few of my games. I’m a bit of a hoarder… 😀

And because all that wasn’t enough I started to take inspiration from all these games and began to work on a fantasy world of my own, writing like there was no tomorrow, drawing pictures, designing a language, landscapes, origin stories of characters and much more (which is probably lost in time by now. But I saved some small pieces, luckily).

One of the main protagonists…

There was no way for me to agree with these grown-ups who always claimed that playing too many video games and watching too much TV would simply destroy your own capability to be creative. Au contraire, it only kindled the fire!

It wasn’t so much about escaping a reality you don’t like. It was shaping your reality with things you enjoy. Although my childhood wasn’t that enjoyable at times I never felt the need to retreat into a fantasy world. But I did feel the need to fill this world with fantasy.



[… to be continued!]

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[AudioPlays] – Masters of the Universe


Warning, this is completely german 😀

In another life I’m known as the Crazy Merch Lady – for a good reason. It’s a huge collection of 80s and 90s popculture items and toys I call my own and of course the Masters of the Universe-Toys are amongst them.

Long story short – I got the opportunity to voice two characters in a non-profit fan-made audio play, performing as Catra and Shadow Weaver from the Princess of Power series, the very girly pendant to the Masters of the Universe.

I’m a little bit proud because I love participating in such fan projects – it gives me plenty of experience and room for more creativity 🙂

So I hope you like what I did, it was the first bigger role for me so please bear with me 😀

Have a great day guys!

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[Music] Adrian von Ziegler – 2 hours of Fantasy Music


Adrian von Ziegler is another one of my favorite fantasy music composers and in the video above you can clearly hear why.

I’m constantly looking for beautiful background music for my dwelling and hope you enjoy my finds aswell as I do 🙂

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[Documentary] Seax and shield fighting

Those Kaptorga guys are slayin it 😀

They made a video about fighting with knife and shield and explained how to block an opponent. Since I’m about to get my hands on a seax replica myself I really enjoyed watching this little instructional video.

Did I mention I’m getting a seax? … I’m so excited, it’s a replica of the Seax of Beagnoth found in the river Thames. 🙂 It’s only a decorative replica and not fit for actual re-enactment fights but it’s glorious 😀

Have an awesome day, folks!

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Costume best-of!


By the way that costume’s a best of! The corsage is fantasy, the bag is decorated with a viking style ornament but I don’t think it’s anything historical. The little sac might be some sort of historical, the band I fastened it with is certainly not. The belt is viking inspired with its metal fittings but I guess it’s also on the fantasy side. The boots are from Jumex in 2013, definitely ancient 😉 . The skirt is some random gypsy stuff from ebay, the blouse is a medieval market find, as well as the bracers which are sold by Mytholon. The sword is a replica from a find from the scottish isle Eigg and some of my hair is made of Kanekalon which was made in China.
Things you can’t see in detail:
Earrings by Snorre Jewelry (epic but modern)
Badger foot – genuine, but also modern
Shoulder fur – old, but not old enough to count as genuinely ancient. Also fantasy.
Finger rings: Some are replicas, some are fantasy.
Bonus drinking horn, which is also fantasy but still epic 😀

Nobody actually ran around like this back in the days. But I still love these kinds of costumes. They remind me of epic fantasy movies like Lord of the Rings, and even more epic LARP adventures.

I love to create costumes and characters consisting of both, historical and fantasy components. But I’ll hopefully take the adventure and create a completely historic costume soon!

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[Music] Gary Moore – Over the hills and far away

Pure 80s glory.

After all these years I’m still in love with the 80s. ❤

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[Vlog] Welcome to the forest :D

So I made this little test-vlog 🙂

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Swastika Documentary


Hey hey!

I thought I could share this (german) Swastika documentary with you! I did the animation of said rotating symbol and I’m a little bit proud to show that off 🙂






These videos are only available in german language but I hope many of you can enjoy them 🙂

Of course the overall tone is critical against the third Reich, but also against people overreacting when confronted with the topic. It was the second time I worked together with the author and good friend of mine Voenix, whom you can visit here:


Voenix @ Youtube: HeidenTV

Voenix’s Homepage

Voenix @ Facebook

He’s also an amazing artist, I definitely recommend to check out his work 🙂

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[Music] The Music of ElfQuest

Anyone into ElfQuest? I still got one of my comics sealed in a plastic bag from back in the days, although I have to admit that I haven’t read them in ages. But nevertheless I enjoy listening to the album “A Wolfrider’s Reflections”. I highly suggest buying one from amazon as soon as it pops up on there because it’s a cool collectible item to have 🙂


But until then you can still listen to the songs on youtube! I heard by the way it’s great background music for your pen&paper group 😉



Do you guys have any (old) fantasy style music you’d like to share? Please do so! I’d love to add it to my collection 🙂

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~ Chase your dreams ~


me, -77 lbs

Work hard. Play hard. Eat well. Be strong. Stay persistent. Forgive yourself. It’ll all work out at the end. No matter what your goal is.


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[Music] Tyr – Hold the Heathen Hammer high


just leaving this classic here 😀 I felt today is like a viking guys in chainmail drinking from horns and standing on ships in the rain playing electric guitars-kind of day ^^

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[Music] Skyrim – Song of the Dragonborn


Jusr sharing some Dragonborn epic… 😀 *conducts imaginary orchestra*

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The difference between say and do (long-ass article)

We often perceive the people we meet through what they say, especially online, when there’s no direct interaction possible than talking either by typing or video chat. Because I live on the internet for over twenty years now I got a bit careful about with whom I interact and what I say. There are loads of people out there simply looking for a fight, trying to stress you out. Not only your classic troll, but also people wishing to feel domination about somebody else, for example by fighting over stupid stuff in facebook comments or under youtube videos.  So this article is about the difference of what people say and how they act and if these things actually match up all the time. (Spoiler: They don’t 😉 )

I spent a lot of time on internet forums in the early 2000s. They were the number 1 resource for one of my favorite hobbies which was cartoons and pop culture items of the 80s and early 90s and most of the people there were a tad bit older than me but that was okay. I got to know some very amazing artists at that time who are today working (at least sometimes) in the industry and turning their talent into cash, which is really dope! But occasionally the common troll, the jealous bitch or the annoying fuckboy appeared, caused some uproar and then vanished never to be seen again. They said a lot of stuff, claimed this and that, sometimes writing epicly long posts for hours on end, depending on what they tried to achieve, and of course they tried to interact directly with members of the community to get the fuel for their written escapades. Sometimes some people met them in real life and were a bit taken aback that the person who just wrote huge or agressive texts was very different from what they saw right in front of them. Which once more taught them the lesson that it’s most likely not what it seems online.

I, too, had a few unpleasant encounters like this and decided I would keep my private life and my friends out of the internet. I don’t feel comfortable exposing people to an audience, who may be not as experienced or simply not interested in internet related things, no matter how small this audience might be. Hence I’m very careful of sharing photos or tagging them or mentioning them at all without their consent. Because once it’s out there, it’s out there.

So, I’m a girl and I post photos of myself, sometimes looking witchy, sometimes a bit sexy (without exposing all the gaping holes or protruding ornaments, you get the gist), often times painted with makeup, wearing cloakes, crazy amounts of jewelry, wigs and stuff. And since this is part of what I do for a living I’m oftentimes more polite on my social media than I’d be in direct interaction. My accounts are my business cards and if I cuss too much, it’ll be descriptive of me. Sometimes I do cuss indeed, but I use it as a stylistic device in articles I write but direct interaction with customers or acquaintances is strictly polite and professional. Just like your average internet troll the image I project of myself is not completely true because I won’t let people know when I’m annoyed because of private reasons, while the troll will make himself seem bigger than he is in real life. I do it because I strive to be professional, the troll does it because he strives to feel good.

I’m not spoiling it for you when I say that these artificial images can be problematic. This professional appearance is one of the reasons why actors, models and influencers seem to be flawless at the first glance. Nobody knows whether I’m wearing my beautiful elven gown or gray sweatpants with holes two unspecific male cats clawed into them while trying to chase eachother, and a rather out of place lavender colored PJ top saying “This moment should last forever” on the front. But this picture is definitely not going to appear on my instagram. And if it is, someone’s gonna die ;).

For me, social media is not a thing to show off my perfect life on but a source of inspiration. My photos show my work and my face, the occasional outfit of the day when I once more went a bit overboard with my clothing choice, but my everyday life is filled with working on projects, puttig things into envelopes, ordering things, cleaning my cats’ litterbox, washing clothes, repearing shit these two little buggers broke, caring for my family and friends and basically being a very normal person in general, with a few exceptions concerning my hobbies. Sometimes I witness perfect moments I don’t post anywhere. Sometimes I’m lit af but nobody online will notice 😀 Everyone’s life has loads of facets.

And of couse you get messages from people, complimenting you when you post photos of yourself or what you do online and I really appreciate all of them. So much. You have no idea! And I overlook most of the awkwardness when people write me because I’m out there all the time, I talked with people about 1000 times richer, more experienced and more talented than I am and I’m quite confident most of the time. So it’s okay if your joke doesn’t kick off right away. It happens to me, too. I’m the queen of awkward jokes that I need to explain 😉 And if I don’t answer you back I’m usually not pissed, just busy.


Sometimes I get annoyed and indeed pissed about what people try to do to get in contact with me or how they think they can act around me just because they talked to me a few times via Facebook. That’s also something natural, that people sometimes cannot contain themselves. Not because I’m that awesome but because they get really excited and overwhelmed with meeting someone new with an unsusual job whose photos are all edited and they’re simply not used to that. The younger generation is, but some people at the age of 35+ aren’t necessarily.

So what happens is that people try to hit on me very hard or they try to get my contact information very hard, message me each and every day about the stuff they do, ask me for an opinion, ask for collaborations, ask for help with digital art or even order stuff from me just to get the feeling of having to do with me.

I’m really not that special. And I often remind people that they are writing to a business account and some of them realize that they were somehow misled by the circumstances. Some get angry, some feel ashamed but some just ignore that. They start writing very flirty stuff, tell me things out of their private life, mostly that their marriage is going down in flames, that they are depressed because they lost their spouse, that they lost a shipload of money, and while I appreciate that they trust me with this information and they think I can at least give them some kind of advice, it’s a very thin line that’s sometimes being crossed with a bulldozer.

So, some of these fellows, especially the very flirty ones, I can’t take seriously. Not the laughing-kind, but I cannot be responsive to online flirting. Not only because I have a partner but because these people are flirting with a business profile that only shows the good side of the medal. It doesn’t mean I’m faking this whole entire pagan thing I’m doing, because I’m not. My living room is stuffed to the brim with devotional objects, but nobody is that positive every single day. And I highly doubt that all the beautiful viking girls on Instagram gear up every day to stroll through the woods. They do this stuff, but not every day 24/7/365.

The line I was talking about which was crossed with a bulldozer happened when somebody repeatedly tried to intertwine me and my business with his personal life, telling me he can’t tell his wife that he ordered stuff from me because she’d be jealous. He can’t tag me in an animation he took from a conversation with me because of his jealous wife.

People will try this. They will try to flatter you, they will try to compliment you. Not only influencers but also real-life people. Normal people without make up. Intending to take advantage of you, sometimes themselves meaning ill, sometimes not because they only act a bit instinctively without thinking too much. And they will of course tell you otherwise when you ask them to stop their behaviour.

Typical dialogue:

-“Hey sexy! ❤ You lookin so hawt!”
– “Hey, could you please stop making these kinds of remarks? While I appreciate that you like my work it’s awkward that you’re acting so flirty and stuff. On a sidenote, I do have a partner.”
“Oh nononononooooo, I’m not flirting with you, I talk to everyone like this all. the. time.”

2 days later..

– “Ohmygosh I just realized you’re the perfect woman, I just love your face in your new pic, I wish my gurl/boy was more like you… :-*”

2 days later…

– “Just thought about your newest pics and the combination of your looks, your hobbies and your attitude is all I’d ever need to be the happiest person!”
– “Hey I just told you this flirting is awkward. This is a business profile and I actually have a partner, in case you forgot.”
– “Oh sorry, I really wasn’t flirting. Your partner’s so lucky! I wish I was him/her. If you and I were single I’d really have to pull myself together, you’d lead a risky life I tell ya… 😉 :-* ❤ ”

That’s flirting, although the person states otherwise. And some people insist on continueing this behaviour no matter how often you tell them to stop. And that’s another perfect example of the difference between what you say and what you do, and that these two don’t necessarily have to line up. As the wannabe-influencer I am I cannot cater to this stuff and also as a private person I’m careful af to not let people into my life who want to take advantage by saing the one thing and doing another.

Conclusion (aka tl;dr):

People out there will lie right into your face. They will act as if they were 10 feet big, they’ll try to seduce you, they’ll try to take advantage of you, try to snatch your stuff for cheap, try to make you susceptible to blackmailing, try to see you naked, try to come into your private life and create chaos just for the sake of it. They will be flirty, they will be menacing. Not only online. You have to be careful. But you shouldn’t forget that there’s a beauty in interacting with people, hearing their stories, getting genuine compliments, being regarded as trustworthy. The only things that can protect you are experience, advice and caution. Just like with everything in life. And in case something in my text ringed a bell to you … it’s probably because you experienced what I just said and simply didn’t connect the dots yet.


Anyway, that was a rather long article I had floating around on my mind for a few days. Hope you liked it and you maybe even found it to be useful 🙂


Have a nice weekend!

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Things I put my close friends through:

A list…
– excessive finger biting (theirs)
– penis jokes
– indicating big bewbs on other girls (admiringly. but still childish.)
– Too much food.
– Too much fatty food.
– Stealing their fatty food every. single. time.
– spamming with cute and funny animal gifs
– repeating said gifs, especially the somersault raccoon
– playing that game where you show your friend that ring formed by the thumb and the index finger, and if they look into it they’ll get punished. Every single time. (Longest match is still being played for 8 years now)
– ramblings about what I need to buy, what I bought and what should be cheaper. And it’s never something useful, only bones, stones, skull-shaped drinking cups, wall cloths, wool…
– “If it’s sweet it’s gone.”
– Maggi. Google it. Try to find it in your country. You can thank me later. *takes a sip with a straw*
– endless rants about physics and why that documentary on TV sucks
– annoying fangirling of the Undertaker
– silly handshakes
– stupidly huge amounts of food when I act as a party host because a) more food is more better and b) leftovers
– I’m a duck. I think like a duck and I can do this thing with my feet. I will insist that I am in fact a duck.
– strange musings and spontaneous actions concerning piercings, tattoos and body mods. The wallet is the limit! (which is… not that impressive though :D)
– “That’s still good! I can totally repair that!” / “Oh look a stray [bag of whatever], I could use that in [whatever project]!”
– “I’m gonna die. I touched a [random insect]!”
– Random movie quotes of movies which are by now at least 25 years old.
– Shouts of “Oh look! it’s a [Queen/Princess/Lady] [Petal Pony/Wavyhair/Sweetypie] from that toyline nobody remembered 6 months after it vanished from the stores”-shoutings while on flea markets
– Causal chains – causal chains everywhere! And I explain them from start to finish.
– I will either shoot you with my longbow, hack you into little pieces with one of my swords, knives or axes or scream in panic and run around if you happen to be a daddy longlegs.
People shouldn’t get a wrong impression of me.
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The Nine Noble Virtues

I came to think about these during the last few days, the nine noble virtues of the asatru belief. For me, these terms represent an ideal I try to achieve, although I do not belong to any organisation (like Odinic Rite, who came up with these virtues).

  1. Courage
    First we have courage. Being courageous is often a good thing, for example by defending a friend, facing a difficult task or simply state an opinion. Showing courage means you take the risk of losing something. I think I might be at least a tiny bit courageous. I tend to speak my mind even when I sense there’s some backlash coming my way for that. I took the risk of starting my business, with a lot of stuff that could go wrong. I you ever feel that you lack courage just take a look at all the times you did small things that cost other people an effort to do. Everyone’s different and the things you do with ease may be monstrous obstacles for others.
  2. Truth
    Speaking the truth is oftentimes harder than a little lie. Especially when people want to avoid to get annoyed they tend to use white lies to get along with others. Also speaking the truth may hurt. But lying will get your ass into deep trouble, especially when unnecessary. People lie to seem more interesting. There are many reasons for that but it all comes down to avoidance. They want to avoid being regarded as dull, they want to avoid their partner to learn about their affair, they want to avoid hurting others, because it’s way easier. “I’m busy today!” is way more convenient than “Oh my god I can’t stand your attitude towards everything you asshat!” because it’s more polite. And while it may be the better choice to be polite sometimes, it’s never a good choice to lie to those who trust you. Don’t be that self-indulgent wanker who lies for his own comfort. People will notice that and you will be basically fucked. In the butt. With rocket propulsion.
  3. Honour
    Honour is a difficult concept and I think it’s heavily intertwined with all the terms on this list. Honour has a lot to do with perception, how others perceive me, how I perceive myself, how people talk about me behind my back. And I don’t mean that talking slack shit because that happens anyway. I’m talking about the question if people talk about me positively, if they recommend me, if the tell funny stories about me, how they remember me and if they enjoy thinking of me. It’s like a balance between one’s own and other’s expectations for example moral-wise. Do people consider me as a role-model? Do I embarrass myself in front of everyone? Am I getting caught lying or stealing all the time? Can people depend on me? I think when I add everything up together and I conclude that the positive aspekts of me prevail, I might have achieved something like an honour.
  4. Fidelity
    Now that one’s easy. a) Don’t go fucking around. Don’t hit on girls and guys when you’re in a relationship, and respect when the person you’re interested in is in a relationship. Because fidelity and trust are precious and easily destroyed by not thinking and taking out your boobs or parking your sausage in the wrong garage. Don’t be that person. There is already a fuckton of persons like this out there. Don’t try to keep someone who is in a relationship up in your sleeve and plan around if or if not any relationship is going to last and if you’ll be able to grab something from the leftovers. People aren’t stupid. They notice your sudden behavioral change when you cheat on them (or plan to), they notice when you got somebody else on your mind, no matter how often you claim everything’s fine. b) Be loyal to your gods. Of course something bad can happen to you but if you turn away from your religion you couldn’t have been that serious in the first place, could you?
  5. Discipline
    If you decide to do something, do it. Do it wholeheartedly. Don’t be a sloth. Don’t get distracted. You want to engage in a relationship – be ready to keep your eyes on your partner. You want to get a job – go there regularly and do your best and don’t stop going there after six months because it became boring. You want to practice arts or sports – don’t let laziness take over. Celebrate the holidays all around the year to fasten your bond with your beliefs and don’t let anything minor hinder you. First comes the homerwork, then the PS4. Discipline can shape your character and will make you a helpful and reliable person. Which is in turn good for your honour.
  6. Hospitality
    Be ice to your guests. This one seems to originate when people wandered around for hours on end just to reach the next settlement. But to transfer this to our modern days I’d explain it as being generous. Know when you’re taken advantage of in an unfair way, but also help your friends whenever you can. They will help you back some time.
  7. Self Reliance
    Don’t mooch on other people. Strive to be independent in every way you can (but don’t take it too far and cause yourself problems). To sustain a community, either of a small amount of friends or a big community consisting of hundred and more people, it’s important for every single member to contribute something and to not only take. Independence makes you a strong person and the less you need to take and the more you can contribute, the better the community can grow and handle people who cannot contribute much for a small amount of time. This also includes your responsibility to take care of your health and what you eat and how cleanly you are.
  8. Industriousness
    Werk werk werk werk werk…
    Get your lazy butt out of your chair and do your chores. And then do your taxes. Repeating your tasks will create muscles, you’ll get used to think in certain ways, your workflow will start to get easier.
  9. Perseverance
    Don’t. Ever. Give. Up. Like seriously.

These are only short forms of explainations to give a quick overview. But I think you get the gist. I myself like to follow a codex and I measure myself accourding to these virtues, trying to better myself. And to be honest I have no clue how the Odinic Rite-guys interprete these terms themselves. I don’t belong to any group, I just found this concept to be an interesting one and adapted it for my everyday life 🙂 Maybe I’m gonna blog a bit more about this topic, probably to cover these nine terms in a more detailed manner. But until then…



Have a nice day 🙂

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“You’re no real viking!!11111”

A few weeks ago some kiddo wrote me that he hates to break it to me, but I cannot be a viking because I don’t go raiding with my ship and I (usually) don’t kill people to snatch their belongings.

Well, no shit, Sherlock.

And the girls on instagram posting elf and mermaid pics? Are you saying these are fake? They’re using props? And… even photoshop? Omg. I gotta delete myself out of this world.

After making clear what my page is about he backed up a bit and said there are so many Lagerthas and Ragnars around, pretending to be something they’re not, ruining the Asatru/Pagan community.

Yeah I can see them too. There are tons of Ragnars and Lagerthas.

I started getting into paganism in my early teens, an interest which got kindled from my childhood on, and being what I am for about 20 years now (which makes me old af 😉 ) I find these accusations a bit funny (the haha-funny and the weird-funny aswell). I never even watched this Vikings-series for more than two episodes because the german voice acting was so bad, everyone sounded like they had a fully grown hedgehog in their mouths. (Probably to sound reaaaallyyyy nordic and archaic and cool. Which… failed.) But being on Instagram and being a nerdy girl I found this series must be really successful, considering how much merch and pics are around.

Can pretending to be a movie character be bad for “the” pagan community?

Let me answer with a question: Can pretending to be a movie character be bad for the city you live in?


Probably because the problem solves itself? Probably because people will sooner or later find out if you’re a nice person or an asshat. And they’ll treat you accordingly, no matter if you call yourself Ragnar, Bugs Bunny or Deadpool.

I’m not into drama. And I don’t care about accusations about being a fake and I couldn’t care less about competitions about who is the vikingiest viking in the history of viking vikinghood. Because I simply enjoy doing my shit. And if someone appears at the horizon, claiming to be a TV character I let them be. I like this cosplay stuff too and maybe they have something interesting to say. And if not – who cares? I gotta admit I wanted to be Agent Scully so badly at some point in my tiny young life that I coloured my hair and took a (cheap and broken) leather suitcase to school. 😉

I think it’s often a need of people to keep their supposed community clean from people they don’t like. Maybe because they fear that these others are cooler, prettier, funnier or more successful with something with less effort – and of course that feels unfair. Or maybe because they fear that these people bring changes. And nobody really likes changes to a system they like. (World of Wacraft / Overwatch Patchday, anyone?)

So am I fake? Do I only pretend?

My life’s not always like frolicking in the forest and I don’t do pompous rituals every single day. I gotta job to do, stuff to craft, things to buy, cook, clean my kitties’ litterbox, sometimes Bragi poops on the floor when there’s something he despises, Loki likes to sneeze on food just because he thinks he can steal some when you leave it alone. But here’s the thing: My thoughts, my actions and my moral standards are influenced by a pagan point of view. Pagan in comparison with christian, because it’s hard to determine what the modern term of paganism is defining exactly. I do ask oracles, I love old norse and celtic patterns, my work is heavily influenced by these things and I read the Havamal back and forth because it fits my life quite well. I like viking themed movies and music, I’m interested in all sorts of historic weapons and armor, I learned a bit swedish and love to compare it with norwegian, dutch, german and english language-wise. I have no clue if this makes me a real (c) viking 😉 but using the terms related to vikings is important to get found on the internet. And the more people find me, the more munney I can maek!!!1 well yeah, of course it’s good for my little business, but I had my Instagram years before I started selling viking and fantasy themed jewelry, and according to the messages I get from you guys you really like what I do and that’s an amazing thing – to make people happy and to hear about their little stories and why they’re into history and fantasy and medieval times and old weapons and stuff.

So if anyone doesn’t consider me viking enough it’s okay. I only strive to be my own person anyway.


Conclusion: Do your own shit that makes you happy, don’t be a pain in the ass, know your duties and be honest to yourself and the people around you.

And stay epic 😉

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[Music] Beethoven ^-^

Just in case you need to listen to an epic version of Beethoven’s songs, here you go 😀
Created by Hidden Citizens

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The on-fleek-pagan make-up :D

I love playing with make-up! Which may be one of the reasons why I look differently in almost every photo 😀 But although I’m an alternative girl I strive to practice my skills, watch youtube tutorials and lurk around in drugstores and retail stores to grab some toys for me.

I can tell you that without make-up I don’t look even half as flawless, there are tons of spots, dark circles around my eyes, discolorations, the occasional pimple, even my eyebrows are uneven and my nose is crooked. But as much as I love to correct this stuff with make-up, I’m completely content with myself. I love to joke around that I look like a mushroom wearing a wig or like a scarecrow or Freddy Kruger, but at the end of the day I take my make-up off and don’t put it back on again for weeks because I can also easily live without it.

And I’m open about the fact that I edit my pictures. I put my instagram pictures through a whole lot of photoshop. First because you have to since camera lenses make your pictures always a bit dull and take away lots of colors. But I also even out my skin a bit, hide some blemishes and since I’m working with a DSLR I have to hide some flakiness. But concerning my bodyshape I’ve never changed something about it.

But why do I do that and what exactly is fake?

I usually only hide blemishes and change the temperature of the photo, meaning adjusting how much yellow and blue are visible.

And I do it for two reasons:

I know that spots can be distracting. They pull my eye away from the complete picture and I get lost in these details. I don’t like that and I want people to enjoy the whole picture without getting distracted.

And that’s the way I want to look in pictures. I understand my photos like paintings, where not everything necessarily has to be like the artist drew it. And I want people to know that I sometimes look flawless with tons of make-up and perfect lighting, but sometimes I look like a huge pile of poop and that’s totally fine because we all have days like that. And just because somebody has perfect skin it doesn’t necessarily mean their lives are perfect or their jobs are perfect. And with being open about editing my pictures I want to break the illusive picture people in general tend to get from looking at Instagram the whole day. And it shows that we all can seem to be perfect with the right amount of trickery.

Sometimes, this is me.

But most of the time, this is me:

And this:

Don’t stress yourself into thinking everyone else is more beautiful, more funny, more exciting or more perfect. We’re all equally awkward sometimes.

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Results! :D

Yesterday was quite exhausting, but I still took the time to edit some of my pictures 😀 Here’s my favorite so far.

I literally slept like a stone, but I’m already full of ideas what to do next. Since my Instagram following increased like Hel over the last few weeks I thought I could do a little giveaway on all of my platforms. Still looking into what I could raffle and how to pick a random winner.

I wish you guys a great week-end and wonderful holidays in case you celebrate Easter 🙂


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[Music] Blackmore’s Night – The Circle

Just sharing this piece of music which always relaxes me 🙂 which is very welcome after a hard day of walking around on a beautiful medieval market I attended, taking loads of photos and having a little photoshoot in a forest nearby… phew! And now, at 1:42 am I’m finally coming to rest. What a day 😀

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A history of magic

In January 2015 I visited the Harry Potter exhibition in Cologne but I never shared the photos I took properly. And since I found them today on my backup harddrive I decided this might be the perfect time to let you take a peek at what I caught 🙂

This looks so casual 😀

I totally got lost in all the details ❤

It was like visiting a part of my childhood, even though I was already 17 when the first movie was released in 2001.

So colorful! I’m still marvelling at all this 🙂

Parvati’s costume 🙂 I love how the uniforms have all these little individual details

Omg Hagrid’s costume was huge!

I probably need all of this 😀

And an Hungarian Horntail 😀


A life-sized Buckbeak. This was inspiring enough for me to want to make loads of life-sized animals, somewhen in the future xD

All the props, hard fangirling 😀

Oh yeah, and this bitch…

Professor Slughorn’s garb

The amazingly awkward Professor Lockhart 😀

And his amazingly awkward book(s) 😀

This guy’s a real hero 😀

The executioner >.<

Look at the level of inconvenience Dobby is experiencing right now 😀 (The sign in the middle says “Photography prohibited” :P)

They exude evil °___°

What a beautiful dress for such a nasty woman 😀

Yaaay! Clowns!!! 😉

Quidditch, anyone?

I think this is what one of these youtube hauls would look like if I did one 😀

These mandrake props were screeching all. the. time. 😀

I literally couldn’t let this opportunity pass by and also got myself a replica of Dumbledore’s wand:

Even after so many years I still get excited about all this beautiful magic and I’m really glad I had this opportunity 🙂

Really hope you enjoyed my little trip back in time! Have a magical day, guys!

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Ostara blessings ^^

It’s spring equinox and the sun is bathing everything in a beautiful shimmering, glistening and sparkling! What a beautiful day 🙂

So while I had an unfavorable encounter with one of my suppliers I came to the conclusion that I won’t let that rain on my spring parade and I decided to extend my assortment a bit. So there’ll be some tools and maybe even metal clay in my shop very soon 😀

But aside from that I feel very energetic at the moment, with all the birds singing outside, all the little buds and shoots coming out of their winter hiding places and the sky becoming more and more blue. I really can’t decide which season is my favorite!

Back in my old place I had a vast herbal “garden” on my balcony, with many little friends visiting me, like moths, butterflies, birds, bees, bumblebees, you name it. It was like a little oasis in the midst of the grey city.


I had all sorts of flowers and even peas and tiny apple trees growing there, some catnip, even fern!

Oh, and when you have these little guys visiting you:


(the larva of a ladybug) you know your garden is sustaining itsself because they eat all lice they can get.

There were onions


which admittedly didn’t taste that good but they produced beautiful flowers!


Aw they grow up so fast 😀 Especially when they’re living on a huge bunch of mustard plants, you can see the tiny grains inside of the husk on the left side of Mr. Beetle here 🙂


All sorts of edible and non-edible greenery 🙂


It was glorious and I feel the urge to revive this little project of mine. We’ll see!

Have a happy Ostara everyone! 🙂

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[Music] Garmarna – Herr Mannelig

One of my favorite interpretations of the song! 🙂



Bittida en morgon, innan solen upprann,
Innan foglarna började sjunga,
Bergatrollet friade till fager ungersven.
Hon hade en falskeliger tunga:

Herr Mannelig, herr Mannelig, trolofven I mig.
För det jag bjuder så gerna;
I kunnen väl svara endast ja eller nej.
Om i viljen eller ej.

Eder vill jag gifva de gångare tolf,
Som gå uti rosendelunden;
Aldrig har det varit någon sadel uppå dem,
Ej heller betsel uti munnen.

Eder vill jag gifva de qvarnarna tolf,
Som stå mellan Tillö och Ternö;
Stenarna de äro af rödaste gull,
Och hjulen silfverbeslagna.

Eder vill jag gifva ett förgyllande svärd,
Som klingar utaf femton guldringar;
Och strida huru I strida vill,
Stridsplatsen skolen i väl vinna.

Eder vill jag gifva en skjorta så ny,
Den bästa I lysten att slita;
Inte är hon sömmad av nål eller trå,
Men virkad af silket det hvita.

Sådana gåfvor jag toge väl emot,
Om du vore kristelig qvinna,
Men nu så är du det värsta bergatroll
Af Neckens och djefvulens stämma.

Bergatrollet ut på dörren sprang,
Hon rister och jämrar sig svåra:
Hade jag fått den fager ungersven,
Så hade jag mistat min plåga.

Herr Mannelig herr Mannelig trolofven I mig.
För det jag bjuder så gerna;
I kunnen väl svara endast ja eller nej,
Om i viljen eller ej.

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Eco-friendly fur-wearing

And just when you thought this topic already got discussed so many times that nobody wants to hear about it anymore the internet soldiers of hate-posting arise yet again to write their bloody fingers off…

“Whaddaya talkin about?!”

Simply put: Pagan music groups like Omnia wearing leather and fur.

To put things straight: I’m not siding with Omnia and bands like them because I don’t know them personally.

But here’s the thing.

I consider myself a nature-loving, animal-rescuing, flowers-for-bees-planting, peace loving, sports-hunter-hating person. I rescued tons of birds and all of my cats came from problemtatic circumstances, abusive owners or animal shelters. I support local farmers and buy milk and vegetables preferably directly from them instead of multi-million-€-companies. I’m not perfect in what I do because sometimes I do indeed go to the supermarket but I am in no competition to be morally more right than others. And although my lifestyle’s very down to earth, muddy, crafty and more often than not grubby (because that happens when you have two cat boys and try to make a living by working with your hands) and I try to combine what I do with eco-friendlyness with sticking to materials I feel good about using them. But still I do use and own fur and leather.

How can that be?

First of all: I’m no friend of artificial shit. I mean I do have plastic stuff. It’s what I write this text on, some of my tools consist of it, some of my food comes wrapped in it but I openly boycott stores which wrap every single bell pepper in its own little plastic mantle (because seriously…I know they argument that vegetables harvested under eco-friendly circumstances should not come in contact with normal ones due to contamination issues but in no way is wrapping everything and their mother in plastic the right countermeasurement. At least in my opinion…). I dare say if more people came down to my amount of waste production there’d be a lot less waste. I don’t go to fast food chains, most of my clothes are second hand (if not third- or fourth hand. I mean I wear stuff my late grandma wore 40-50 years ago), my towels and dishcloths belonged to my family for 10-20 years (and with proper care and the right materials they can easily live this long) and even my cleaning cloths were undershirts once. It’s not because we were poor as fuck, it’s because we are like that. I inherited the complete tool collection of my father which is 30-40 years old and except for motors that got a bit weak over time this stuff is perfectly fine (honestly, how can a hammer not be fine? Or nails, or pliers, or saws… 😉 ).

Second: I don’t think nature owes me one because I live kinda eco-friendly. The fur I own came from animals that were cared for and loved by their owners, and then died. Some got attacked by wolves, some were eaten by humans, some just died of old age. That happens when you live far away from the cities, where hungry beasts lurk behind your fences and although you have the largest dogs they might not always be able to protect the herd. And you gotta live. And eat. And while people in the cities are able to just jump into the next grocery store with a wide arrangement of tofu and soy products present in the shelves some people can’t.

Third: Comparing your own to other peoples circumstances is a tricky thing. While I’m often able to get my hands on bones and stuff because I’m quite attentive other people maybe can’t pull that off. I keep the bones of our meals for example, collect feathers from the ground while strolling along somewhere, people sometimes just give me things like pinecones, old jewelry and stuff. And because all this is highly individual I could never judge people who are not living and working like me. Which doesn’t mean that everyone else has the right to littler around or loot the whole forest just because they don’t live like me. But most of the times the circumstances are different for people. Which means some can be strictly vegan, some can’t. Some can give shelter to animals, some can’t. Some can get their hands on ethically sourced leather, some can’t. Some can make up their minds and work with materials which once belonged to a living being, some can’t. Just because you can do something it doesn’t mean anyone else can, too.

Fourth: Less is more. There’s stuff made from leather that’s really useful. Like leather pants when it’s cold outside, or a leather coat to keep you warm and the rain from your clothes. I own exactly one pair of leather pants for 17 years now. They’re still great, like on their first day. The same goes for my coat, 10 years old, also still great. On the other hand I owned at least 4-5 plastic pants looking like leather, all just tore apart after four to six months because the softener just disappeared and the seams just made these whole things even more brittle. I can’t help but thinking that it’s better to own something sturdy which was handmade by a craftsman than to buy the same shit over and over again made from plastic that may or may not ooze some stuff nobody can pronounce right away.

Fifth: When I collect the bones and feathers of other people’s (or animal’s 😉 ) meals I’m literally collecting trash. The spine I’ve made a necklace from was on its way to the garbage can before I grabbed and cleaned it. The problem is that feathers, teeth and bones often come from sources I’d highly suspect of taking stuff by really violent force. I know of regions in the world where they do insane things to animals in order to get their “wolf fangs” for your necklace. You have to do your research. And even if you did, it doesn’t prevent people from lying to your face. Nevertheless I like to trade stuff and money for things other people don’t need. One man’s trash is one girl’s treasure.

This list could go on, I could ramble about a lot of topics related to using animal parts in art, craft and for magic purposes. But I think these points are enough to make one thing clear:

All this shit is hella complicated. It’s hard as fuck to make a living with anything. It always was. And by claiming bands like Omnia follow some sort of double standard because they use fur and leather you just make very clear that you haven’t informed yourself enough. Sure it’s important to raise awareness amongst people that leather is likely a product of agony considering the circumstances animals are mostly kept. But don’t go spreading your message in a way that sane people who don’t have the knowledge you have get repelled by you. Don’t go around attacking people because if you do they will not follow you but go into the opposite direction. Not only that. Their friends will follow them too. And soon your good intentions will become corrupted and regarded as ill.

I don’t expect anyone to agree with me. And my bitchy ass doesn’t tolerate any hate, spam or plain trolling on my blog. I just felt like I could make this statement to clearify that nothing’s only black and white or good and evil. And maybe someone might read this and stops feeling guilty about not being perfect. Just do the best you can.

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[Music] Omnia – Suck my flute

A new song by Omnia!

While the melodie is well-known from their song “Fee Ra Huri” from the album “Musick and Poëtree”  (with parts from “Richard Parker’s Fancy” – Album: Alive; “Saltatio Vita – Album: WolfLove; “Kokopelli” – Album: Earth Warrior)  I find this new interpretation really refreshing and look at this gorgeous video, guys! That’s some serious fire-flinging if I ever saw one 😀

While some people criticized that the band recycled this song from old ones I don’t mind it because they gave these songs a new music video whith that, while making a new music video for songs that are several years old doesn’t make too much sense since they also want to promote their work with this eye-candy.

Have a nice day, guys!

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Tarot – How I got started

der Herr

Don’t get me wrong – I’m no expert in divination and I probably never will be. But when I got started in working with tarot cards I would have loved to read about other people’s experiences without them going on rambling about complicated patterns and the moon phases they required to perform their readings. Because that’s not how tarot works for me, although I’m fully aware that it works like that for them 😉

My approach at divination is what others would describe as down to earth. I don’t do readings for other people except for really really² close friends  and I don’t do it for money because I need a certain connection to the cards, the topic and the person and it’s very problem solving oriented. And with money on my mind beforehand I just can’t concentrate that well.

Finally we got this disclaimer out of the way 😀

I bought my first tarot set at the age of probably 16-17 which was a Rider Waite Tarot and it didn’t talk to me at all, it still doesn’t. Maybe the art style doesn’t fit me, maybe it’s something else but when I first got my hands on this set I just expected something to click which didn’t happen. And that was a tad bit disappointing. At that time I didn’t realize why and I thought that maybe it’s all humbug and people are just crazy.

Some years went by and it was at the dawn of Amazon when I stumbled across another tarot set, which somehow caught my attention. It was celtic themed and the pictures looked interesting, so I gave it another go, thinking if it didn’t work again I could just use the cards for some art. When my package arrived I first read the instructional book which was quite thick, and again I stumbled across these patterns you should structure your cards in on the table. Everything more complicated than past – present – future was not my cup of tea at that time and I thought maybe the patterns don’t matter that much when I approached every card I drew with a certain question in the first place. So I threw the convoluted rules I had read about online and in books overboard and started to concentrate on the cards themselves.

And that was when I learned why the Rider Waite deck didn’t work for me. The cards were just too plain. Lo and behold my eyes need a lot of stuff to view and to get lost in. They need leafy or cloudy patterns, twigs, little mushrooms, squirrels, reflections, tiny details to discover. Then and only then I could focus on working with the cards, let all the symbols flow into my mind.

The first moral of this story is that the wide range of divination techniques is just a catalogue of proposals, and so are all the tools. And the second one is that it is completely fine to go astray from a well established path if it works better for you.


Have a nice day guys! 🙂

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Contact juggling

Yay! It’s my birthday next month so I decided I want to learn something new and treat me with a beautiful gift aswell (which kind of fits in like a crystal ball :D)! I ordered my first acrylic contact juggling ball.

Contact juggling is an art I loved ever since I saw Kelvin Kalvus perform the first time!


Basically it’s balancing acrylic balls and letting them roll and glide all over your arms and torso, performing little tricks. Maybe I’m talented enough to show that off, or maybe not and I’m just gonna pratice for myself, I don’t care as long as I have fun with it 😀


I’m really excited and can’t wait to start practicing!

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[Music] Peter Gundry – Víðbláinn


It was some years ago when I stumbled across this composer named Peter Gundry and his amazing collection of wild and beautiful music!

That’s what you hear in the background of my dwelling almost all the time. Archaic music 🙂

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