just leaving this classic here 😀 I felt today is like a viking guys in chainmail drinking from horns and standing on ships in the rain playing electric guitars-kind of day ^^
Jusr sharing some Dragonborn epic… 😀 *conducts imaginary orchestra*
We often perceive the people we meet through what they say, especially online, when there’s no direct interaction possible than talking either by typing or video chat. Because I live on the internet for over twenty years now I got a bit careful about with whom I interact and what I say. There are loads of people out there simply looking for a fight, trying to stress you out. Not only your classic troll, but also people wishing to feel domination about somebody else, for example by fighting over stupid stuff in facebook comments or under youtube videos. So this article is about the difference of what people say and how they act and if these things actually match up all the time. (Spoiler: They don’t 😉 )
I spent a lot of time on internet forums in the early 2000s. They were the number 1 resource for one of my favorite hobbies which was cartoons and pop culture items of the 80s and early 90s and most of the people there were a tad bit older than me but that was okay. I got to know some very amazing artists at that time who are today working (at least sometimes) in the industry and turning their talent into cash, which is really dope! But occasionally the common troll, the jealous bitch or the annoying fuckboy appeared, caused some uproar and then vanished never to be seen again. They said a lot of stuff, claimed this and that, sometimes writing epicly long posts for hours on end, depending on what they tried to achieve, and of course they tried to interact directly with members of the community to get the fuel for their written escapades. Sometimes some people met them in real life and were a bit taken aback that the person who just wrote huge or agressive texts was very different from what they saw right in front of them. Which once more taught them the lesson that it’s most likely not what it seems online.
I, too, had a few unpleasant encounters like this and decided I would keep my private life and my friends out of the internet. I don’t feel comfortable exposing people to an audience, who may be not as experienced or simply not interested in internet related things, no matter how small this audience might be. Hence I’m very careful of sharing photos or tagging them or mentioning them at all without their consent. Because once it’s out there, it’s out there.
So, I’m a girl and I post photos of myself, sometimes looking witchy, sometimes a bit sexy (without exposing all the gaping holes or protruding ornaments, you get the gist), often times painted with makeup, wearing cloakes, crazy amounts of jewelry, wigs and stuff. And since this is part of what I do for a living I’m oftentimes more polite on my social media than I’d be in direct interaction. My accounts are my business cards and if I cuss too much, it’ll be descriptive of me. Sometimes I do cuss indeed, but I use it as a stylistic device in articles I write but direct interaction with customers or acquaintances is strictly polite and professional. Just like your average internet troll the image I project of myself is not completely true because I won’t let people know when I’m annoyed because of private reasons, while the troll will make himself seem bigger than he is in real life. I do it because I strive to be professional, the troll does it because he strives to feel good.
I’m not spoiling it for you when I say that these artificial images can be problematic. This professional appearance is one of the reasons why actors, models and influencers seem to be flawless at the first glance. Nobody knows whether I’m wearing my beautiful elven gown or gray sweatpants with holes two unspecific male cats clawed into them while trying to chase eachother, and a rather out of place lavender colored PJ top saying “This moment should last forever” on the front. But this picture is definitely not going to appear on my instagram. And if it is, someone’s gonna die ;).
For me, social media is not a thing to show off my perfect life on but a source of inspiration. My photos show my work and my face, the occasional outfit of the day when I once more went a bit overboard with my clothing choice, but my everyday life is filled with working on projects, puttig things into envelopes, ordering things, cleaning my cats’ litterbox, washing clothes, repearing shit these two little buggers broke, caring for my family and friends and basically being a very normal person in general, with a few exceptions concerning my hobbies. Sometimes I witness perfect moments I don’t post anywhere. Sometimes I’m lit af but nobody online will notice 😀 Everyone’s life has loads of facets.
And of couse you get messages from people, complimenting you when you post photos of yourself or what you do online and I really appreciate all of them. So much. You have no idea! And I overlook most of the awkwardness when people write me because I’m out there all the time, I talked with people about 1000 times richer, more experienced and more talented than I am and I’m quite confident most of the time. So it’s okay if you’r joke doesn’t kick off right away. It happens to me, too. I’m the queen of awkward jokes that I need to explain 😉 And if I don’t answer you back I’m usually not pissed, just busy.
Sometimes I get annoyed and indeed pissed about what people try to do to get in contact with me or how they think they can act around me just because they talked to me a few times via Facebook. That’s also something natural, that people sometimes cannot contain themselves. Not because I’m that awesome but because they get really excited and overwhelmed with meeting someone new with an unsusual job whose photos are all edited and they’re simply not used to that. The younger generation is, but some people at the age of 35+ aren’t necessarily.
So what happens is that people try to hit on me very hard or they try to get my contact information very hard, message me each and every day about the stuff they do, ask me for an opinion, ask for collaborations, ask for help with digital art or even order stuff from me just to get the feeling of having to do with me.
I’m really not that special. And I often remind people that they are writing to a business account and some of them realize that they were somehow misled by the circumstances. Some get angry, some feel ashamed but some just ignore that. They start writing very flirty stuff, tell me things out of their private life, mostly that their marriage is going down in flames, that they are depressed because they lost their spouse, that they lost a shipload of money, and while I appreciate that they trust me with this information and they think I can at least give them some kind of advice, it’s a very thin line that’s sometimes being crossed with a bulldozer.
So, some of these fellows, especially the very flirty ones, I can’t take seriously. Not the laughing-kind, but I cannot be responsive to online flirting. Not only because I have a partner but because these people are flirting with a business profile that only shows the good side of the medal. It doesn’t mean I’m faking this whole entire pagan thing I’m doing, because I’m not. My living room is stuffed to the brim with devotional objects, but nobody is that positive every single day. And I highly doubt that all the beautiful viking girls on Instagram gear up every day to stroll through the woods. They do this stuff, but not every day 24/7/365.
The line I was talking about which was crossed with a bulldozer happened when somebody repeatedly tried to intertwine me and my business with his personal life, telling me he can’t tell his wife that he ordered stuff from me because she’d be jealous. He can’t tag me in an animation he took from a conversation with me because of his jealous wife.
People will try this. They will try to flatter you, they will try to compliment you. Not only influencers but also real-life people. Normal people without make up. Intending to take advantage of you, sometimes themselves meaning ill, sometimes not because they only act a bit instinctively without thinking too much. And they will of course tell you otherwise when you ask them to stop their behaviour.
-“Hey sexy! ❤ You lookin so hawt!”
– “Hey, could you please stop making these kinds of remarks? While I appreciate that you like my work it’s awkward that you’re acting so flirty and stuff. On a sidenote, I do have a partner.”
“Oh nononononooooo, I’m not flirting with you, I talk to everyone like this all. the. time.”
2 days later..
– “Ohmygosh I just realized you’re the perfect woman, I just love your face in your new pic, I wish my gurl/boy was more like you… :-*”
2 days later…
– “Just thought about your newest pics and the combination of your looks, your hobbies and your attitude is all I’d ever need to be the happiest person!”
– “Hey I just told you this flirting is awkward. This is a business profile and I actually have a partner, in case you forgot.”
– “Oh sorry, I really wasn’t flirting. Your partner’s so lucky! I wish I was him/her. If you and I were single I’d really have to pull myself together, you’d lead a risky life I tell ya… 😉 :-* ❤ ”
That’s flirting, although the person states otherwise. And some people insist on continueing this behaviour no matter how often you tell them to stop. And that’s another perfect example of the difference between what you say and what you do, and that these two don’t necessarily have to line up. As the wannabe-influencer I am I cannot cater to this stuff and also as a private person I’m careful af to not let people into my life who want to take advantage by saing the one thing and doing another.
Conclusion (aka tl;dr):
People out there will lie right into your face. They will act as if they were 10 feet big, they’ll try to seduce you, they’ll try to take advantage of you, try to snatch your stuff for cheap, try to make you susceptible to blackmailing, try to see you naked, try to come into your private life and create chaos just for the sake of it. They will be flirty, they will be menacing. Not only online. You have to be careful. But you shouldn’t forget that there’s a beauty in interacting with people, hearing their stories, getting genuine compliments, being regarded as trustworthy. The only things that can protect you are experience, advice and caution. Just like with everything in life. And in case something in my text ringed a bell to you … it’s probably because you experienced what I just said and simply didn’t connect the dots yet.
Anyway, that was a rather long article I had floating around on my mind for a few days. Hope you liked it and you maybe even found it to be useful 🙂
Have a nice weekend!
I came to think about these during the last few days, the nine noble virtues of the asatru belief. For me, these terms represent an ideal I try to achieve, although I do not belong to any organisation (like Odinic Rite, who came up with these virtues).
These are only short forms of explainations to give a quick overview. But I think you get the gist. I myself like to follow a codex and I measure myself accourding to these virtues, trying to better myself. And to be honest I have no clue how the Odinic Rite-guys interprete these terms themselves. I don’t belong to any group, I just found this concept to be an interesting one and adapted it for my everyday life 🙂 Maybe I’m gonna blog a bit more about this topic, probably to cover these nine terms in a more detailed manner. But until then…
Have a nice day 🙂
A few weeks ago some kiddo wrote me that he hates to break it to me, but I cannot be a viking because I don’t go raiding with my ship and I (usually) don’t kill people to snatch their belongings.
Well, no shit, Sherlock.
And the girls on instagram posting elf and mermaid pics? Are you saying these are fake? They’re using props? And… even photoshop? Omg. I gotta delete myself out of this world.
After making clear what my page is about he backed up a bit and said there are so many Lagerthas and Ragnars around, pretending to be something they’re not, ruining the Asatru/Pagan community.
Yeah I can see them too. There are tons of Ragnars and Lagerthas.
I started getting into paganism in my early teens, an interest which got kindled from my childhood on, and being what I am for about 20 years now (which makes me old af 😉 ) I find these accusations a bit funny (the haha-funny and the weird-funny aswell). I never even watched this Vikings-series for more than two episodes because the german voice acting was so bad, everyone sounded like they had a fully grown hedgehog in their mouths. (Probably to sound reaaaallyyyy nordic and archaic and cool. Which… failed.) But being on Instagram and being a nerdy girl I found this series must be really successful, considering how much merch and pics are around.
Can pretending to be a movie character be bad for “the” pagan community?
Let me answer with a question: Can pretending to be a movie character be bad for the city you live in?
Probably because the problem solves itself? Probably because people will sooner or later find out if you’re a nice person or an asshat. And they’ll treat you accordingly, no matter if you call yourself Ragnar, Bugs Bunny or Deadpool.
I’m not into drama. And I don’t care about accusations about being a fake and I couldn’t care less about competitions about who is the vikingiest viking in the history of viking vikinghood. Because I simply enjoy doing my shit. And if someone appears at the horizon, claiming to be a TV character I let them be. I like this cosplay stuff too and maybe they have something interesting to say. And if not – who cares? I gotta admit I wanted to be Agent Scully so badly at some point in my tiny young life that I coloured my hair and took a (cheap and broken) leather suitcase to school. 😉
I think it’s often a need of people to keep their supposed community clean from people they don’t like. Maybe because they fear that these others are cooler, prettier, funnier or more successful with something with less effort – and of course that feels unfair. Or maybe because they fear that these people bring changes. And nobody really likes changes to a system they like. (World of Wacraft / Overwatch Patchday, anyone?)
So am I fake? Do I only pretend?
My life’s not always like frolicking in the forest and I don’t do pompous rituals every single day. I gotta job to do, stuff to craft, things to buy, cook, clean my kitties’ litterbox, sometimes Bragi poops on the floor when there’s something he despises, Loki likes to sneeze on food just because he thinks he can steal some when you leave it alone. But here’s the thing: My thoughts, my actions and my moral standards are influenced by a pagan point of view. Pagan in comparison with christian, because it’s hard to determine what the modern term of paganism is defining exactly. I do ask oracles, I love old norse and celtic patterns, my work is heavily influenced by these things and I read the Havamal back and forth because it fits my life quite well. I like viking themed movies and music, I’m interested in all sorts of historic weapons and armor, I learned a bit swedish and love to compare it with norwegian, dutch, german and english language-wise. I have no clue if this makes me a real (c) viking 😉 but using the terms related to vikings is important to get found on the internet. And the more people find me, the more munney I can maek!!!1 well yeah, of course it’s good for my little business, but I had my Instagram years before I started selling viking and fantasy themed jewelry, and according to the messages I get from you guys you really like what I do and that’s an amazing thing – to make people happy and to hear about their little stories and why they’re into history and fantasy and medieval times and old weapons and stuff.
So if anyone doesn’t consider me viking enough it’s okay. I only strive to be my own person anyway.
Conclusion: Do your own shit that makes you happy, don’t be a pain in the ass, know your duties and be honest to yourself and the people around you.
And stay epic 😉
Just in case you need to listen to an epic version of Beethoven’s songs, here you go 😀
Created by Hidden Citizens
I love playing with make-up! Which may be one of the reasons why I look differently in almost every photo 😀 But although I’m an alternative girl I strive to practice my skills, watch youtube tutorials and lurk around in drugstores and retail stores to grab some toys for me.
I can tell you that without make-up I don’t look even half as flawless, there are tons of spots, dark circles around my eyes, discolorations, the occasional pimple, even my eyebrows are uneven and my nose is crooked. But as much as I love to correct this stuff with make-up, I’m completely content with myself. I love to joke around that I look like a mushroom wearing a wig or like a scarecrow or Freddy Kruger, but at the end of the day I take my make-up off and don’t put it back on again for weeks because I can also easily live without it.
And I’m open about the fact that I edit my pictures. I put my instagram pictures through a whole lot of photoshop. First because you have to since camera lenses make your pictures always a bit dull and take away lots of colors. But I also even out my skin a bit, hide some blemishes and since I’m working with a DSLR I have to hide some flakiness. But concerning my bodyshape I’ve never changed something about it.
But why do I do that and what exactly is fake?
I usually only hide blemishes and change the temperature of the photo, meaning adjusting how much yellow and blue are visible.
And I do it for two reasons:
I know that spots can be distracting. They pull my eye away from the complete picture and I get lost in these details. I don’t like that and I want people to enjoy the whole picture without getting distracted.
And that’s the way I want to look in pictures. I understand my photos like paintings, where not everything necessarily has to be like the artist drew it. And I want people to know that I sometimes look flawless with tons of make-up and perfect lighting, but sometimes I look like a huge pile of poop and that’s totally fine because we all have days like that. And just because somebody has perfect skin it doesn’t necessarily mean their lives are perfect or their jobs are perfect. And with being open about editing my pictures I want to break the illusive picture people in general tend to get from looking at Instagram the whole day. And it shows that we all can seem to be perfect with the right amount of trickery.
Sometimes, this is me.
But most of the time, this is me:
Don’t stress yourself into thinking everyone else is more beautiful, more funny, more exciting or more perfect. We’re all equally awkward sometimes.
Yesterday was quite exhausting, but I still took the time to edit some of my pictures 😀 Here’s my favorite so far.
I literally slept like a stone, but I’m already full of ideas what to do next. Since my Instagram following increased like Hel over the last few weeks I thought I could do a little giveaway on all of my platforms. Still looking into what I could raffle and how to pick a random winner.
I wish you guys a great week-end and wonderful holidays in case you celebrate Easter 🙂
Just sharing this piece of music which always relaxes me 🙂 which is very welcome after a hard day of walking around on a beautiful medieval market I attended, taking loads of photos and having a little photoshoot in a forest nearby… phew! And now, at 1:42 am I’m finally coming to rest. What a day 😀
In January 2015 I visited the Harry Potter exhibition in Cologne but I never shared the photos I took properly. And since I found them today on my backup harddrive I decided this might be the perfect time to let you take a peek at what I caught 🙂
This looks so casual 😀
I totally got lost in all the details ❤
It was like visiting a part of my childhood, even though I was already 17 when the first movie was released in 2001.
So colorful! I’m still marvelling at all this 🙂
Parvati’s costume 🙂 I love how the uniforms have all these little individual details
Omg Hagrid’s costume was huge!
I probably need all of this 😀
And an Hungarian Horntail 😀
A life-sized Buckbeak. This was inspiring enough for me to want to make loads of life-sized animals, somewhen in the future xD
All the props, hard fangirling 😀
Oh yeah, and this bitch…
Professor Slughorn’s garb
The amazingly awkward Professor Lockhart 😀
And his amazingly awkward book(s) 😀
This guy’s a real hero 😀
The executioner >.<
Look at the level of inconvenience Dobby is experiencing right now 😀 (The sign in the middle says “Photography prohibited” :P)
They exude evil °___°
What a beautiful dress for such a nasty woman 😀
Yaaay! Clowns!!! 😉
I think this is what one of these youtube hauls would look like if I did one 😀
These mandrake props were screeching all. the. time. 😀
I literally couldn’t let this opportunity pass by and also got myself a replica of Dumbledore’s wand:
Even after so many years I still get excited about all this beautiful magic and I’m really glad I had this opportunity 🙂
Really hope you enjoyed my little trip back in time! Have a magical day, guys!
It’s spring equinox and the sun is bathing everything in a beautiful shimmering, glistening and sparkling! What a beautiful day 🙂
So while I had an unfavorable encounter with one of my suppliers I came to the conclusion that I won’t let that rain on my spring parade and I decided to extend my assortment a bit. So there’ll be some tools and maybe even metal clay in my shop very soon 😀
But aside from that I feel very energetic at the moment, with all the birds singing outside, all the little buds and shoots coming out of their winter hiding places and the sky becoming more and more blue. I really can’t decide which season is my favorite!
Back in my old place I had a vast herbal “garden” on my balcony, with many little friends visiting me, like moths, butterflies, birds, bees, bumblebees, you name it. It was like a little oasis in the midst of the grey city.
I had all sorts of flowers and even peas and tiny apple trees growing there, some catnip, even fern!
Oh, and when you have these little guys visiting you:
(the larva of a ladybug) you know your garden is sustaining itsself because they eat all lice they can get.
There were onions
which admittedly didn’t taste that good but they produced beautiful flowers!
Aw they grow up so fast 😀 Especially when they’re living on a huge bunch of mustard plants, you can see the tiny grains inside of the husk on the left side of Mr. Beetle here 🙂
All sorts of edible and non-edible greenery 🙂
It was glorious and I feel the urge to revive this little project of mine. We’ll see!
Have a happy Ostara everyone! 🙂
One of my favorite interpretations of the song! 🙂
Bittida en morgon, innan solen upprann,
Innan foglarna började sjunga,
Bergatrollet friade till fager ungersven.
Hon hade en falskeliger tunga:
Herr Mannelig, herr Mannelig, trolofven I mig.
För det jag bjuder så gerna;
I kunnen väl svara endast ja eller nej.
Om i viljen eller ej.
Eder vill jag gifva de gångare tolf,
Som gå uti rosendelunden;
Aldrig har det varit någon sadel uppå dem,
Ej heller betsel uti munnen.
Eder vill jag gifva de qvarnarna tolf,
Som stå mellan Tillö och Ternö;
Stenarna de äro af rödaste gull,
Och hjulen silfverbeslagna.
Eder vill jag gifva ett förgyllande svärd,
Som klingar utaf femton guldringar;
Och strida huru I strida vill,
Stridsplatsen skolen i väl vinna.
Eder vill jag gifva en skjorta så ny,
Den bästa I lysten att slita;
Inte är hon sömmad av nål eller trå,
Men virkad af silket det hvita.
Sådana gåfvor jag toge väl emot,
Om du vore kristelig qvinna,
Men nu så är du det värsta bergatroll
Af Neckens och djefvulens stämma.
Bergatrollet ut på dörren sprang,
Hon rister och jämrar sig svåra:
Hade jag fått den fager ungersven,
Så hade jag mistat min plåga.
Herr Mannelig herr Mannelig trolofven I mig.
För det jag bjuder så gerna;
I kunnen väl svara endast ja eller nej,
Om i viljen eller ej.
And just when you thought this topic already got discussed so many times that nobody wants to hear about it anymore the internet soldiers of hate-posting arise yet again to write their bloody fingers off…
“Whaddaya talkin about?!”
Simply put: Pagan music groups like Omnia wearing leather and fur.
To put things straight: I’m not siding with Omnia and bands like them because I don’t know them personally.
But here’s the thing.
I consider myself a nature-loving, animal-rescuing, flowers-for-bees-planting, peace loving, sports-hunter-hating person. I rescued tons of birds and all of my cats came from problemtatic circumstances, abusive owners or animal shelters. I support local farmers and buy milk and vegetables preferably directly from them instead of multi-million-€-companies. I’m not perfect in what I do because sometimes I do indeed go to the supermarket but I am in no competition to be morally more right than others. And although my lifestyle’s very down to earth, muddy, crafty and more often than not grubby (because that happens when you have two cat boys and try to make a living by working with your hands) and I try to combine what I do with eco-friendlyness with sticking to materials I feel good about using them. But still I do use and own fur and leather.
How can that be?
First of all: I’m no friend of artificial shit. I mean I do have plastic stuff. It’s what I write this text on, some of my tools consist of it, some of my food comes wrapped in it but I openly boycott stores which wrap every single bell pepper in its own little plastic mantle (because seriously…I know they argument that vegetables harvested under eco-friendly circumstances should not come in contact with normal ones due to contamination issues but in no way is wrapping everything and their mother in plastic the right countermeasurement. At least in my opinion…). I dare say if more people came down to my amount of waste production there’d be a lot less waste. I don’t go to fast food chains, most of my clothes are second hand (if not third- or fourth hand. I mean I wear stuff my late grandma wore 40-50 years ago), my towels and dishcloths belonged to my family for 10-20 years (and with proper care and the right materials they can easily live this long) and even my cleaning cloths were undershirts once. It’s not because we were poor as fuck, it’s because we are like that. I inherited the complete tool collection of my father which is 30-40 years old and except for motors that got a bit weak over time this stuff is perfectly fine (honestly, how can a hammer not be fine? Or nails, or pliers, or saws… 😉 ).
Second: I don’t think nature owes me one because I live kinda eco-friendly. The fur I own came from animals that were cared for and loved by their owners, and then died. Some got attacked by wolves, some were eaten by humans, some just died of old age. That happens when you live far away from the cities, where hungry beasts lurk behind your fences and although you have the largest dogs they might not always be able to protect the herd. And you gotta live. And eat. And while people in the cities are able to just jump into the next grocery store with a wide arrangement of tofu and soy products present in the shelves some people can’t.
Third: Comparing your own to other peoples circumstances is a tricky thing. While I’m often able to get my hands on bones and stuff because I’m quite attentive other people maybe can’t pull that off. I keep the bones of our meals for example, collect feathers from the ground while strolling along somewhere, people sometimes just give me things like pinecones, old jewelry and stuff. And because all this is highly individual I could never judge people who are not living and working like me. Which doesn’t mean that everyone else has the right to littler around or loot the whole forest just because they don’t live like me. But most of the times the circumstances are different for people. Which means some can be strictly vegan, some can’t. Some can give shelter to animals, some can’t. Some can get their hands on ethically sourced leather, some can’t. Some can make up their minds and work with materials which once belonged to a living being, some can’t. Just because you can do something it doesn’t mean anyone else can, too.
Fourth: Less is more. There’s stuff made from leather that’s really useful. Like leather pants when it’s cold outside, or a leather coat to keep you warm and the rain from your clothes. I own exactly one pair of leather pants for 17 years now. They’re still great, like on their first day. The same goes for my coat, 10 years old, also still great. On the other hand I owned at least 4-5 plastic pants looking like leather, all just tore apart after four to six months because the softener just disappeared and the seams just made these whole things even more brittle. I can’t help but thinking that it’s better to own something sturdy which was handmade by a craftsman than to buy the same shit over and over again made from plastic that may or may not ooze some stuff nobody can pronounce right away.
Fifth: When I collect the bones and feathers of other people’s (or animal’s 😉 ) meals I’m literally collecting trash. The spine I’ve made a necklace from was on its way to the garbage can before I grabbed and cleaned it. The problem is that feathers, teeth and bones often come from sources I’d highly suspect of taking stuff by really violent force. I know of regions in the world where they do insane things to animals in order to get their “wolf fangs” for your necklace. You have to do your research. And even if you did, it doesn’t prevent people from lying to your face. Nevertheless I like to trade stuff and money for things other people don’t need. One man’s trash is one girl’s treasure.
This list could go on, I could ramble about a lot of topics related to using animal parts in art, craft and for magic purposes. But I think these points are enough to make one thing clear:
All this shit is hella complicated. It’s hard as fuck to make a living with anything. It always was. And by claiming bands like Omnia follow some sort of double standard because they use fur and leather you just make very clear that you haven’t informed yourself enough. Sure it’s important to raise awareness amongst people that leather is likely a product of agony considering the circumstances animals are mostly kept. But don’t go spreading your message in a way that sane people who don’t have the knowledge you have get repelled by you. Don’t go around attacking people because if you do they will not follow you but go into the opposite direction. Not only that. Their friends will follow them too. And soon your good intentions will become corrupted and regarded as ill.
I don’t expect anyone to agree with me. And my bitchy ass doesn’t tolerate any hate, spam or plain trolling on my blog. I just felt like I could make this statement to clearify that nothing’s only black and white or good and evil. And maybe someone might read this and stops feeling guilty about not being perfect. Just do the best you can.
A new song by Omnia!
While the melodie is well-known from their song “Fee Ra Huri” from the album “Musick and Poëtree” (with parts from “Richard Parker’s Fancy” – Album: Alive; “Saltatio Vita – Album: WolfLove; “Kokopelli” – Album: Earth Warrior) I find this new interpretation really refreshing and look at this gorgeous video, guys! That’s some serious fire-flinging if I ever saw one 😀
While some people criticized that the band recycled this song from old ones I don’t mind it because they gave these songs a new music video whith that, while making a new music video for songs that are several years old doesn’t make too much sense since they also want to promote their work with this eye-candy.
Have a nice day, guys!
Don’t get me wrong – I’m no expert in divination and I probably never will be. But when I got started in working with tarot cards I would have loved to read about other people’s experiences without them going on rambling about complicated patterns and the moon phases they required to perform their readings. Because that’s not how tarot works for me, although I’m fully aware that it works like that for them 😉
My approach at divination is what others would describe as down to earth. I don’t do readings for other people except for really really² close friends and I don’t do it for money because I need a certain connection to the cards, the topic and the person and it’s very problem solving oriented. And with money on my mind beforehand I just can’t concentrate that well.
Finally we got this disclaimer out of the way 😀
I bought my first tarot set at the age of probably 16-17 which was a Rider Waite Tarot and it didn’t talk to me at all, it still doesn’t. Maybe the art style doesn’t fit me, maybe it’s something else but when I first got my hands on this set I just expected something to click which didn’t happen. And that was a tad bit disappointing. At that time I didn’t realize why and I thought that maybe it’s all humbug and people are just crazy.
Some years went by and it was at the dawn of Amazon when I stumbled across another tarot set, which somehow caught my attention. It was celtic themed and the pictures looked interesting, so I gave it another go, thinking if it didn’t work again I could just use the cards for some art. When my package arrived I first read the instructional book which was quite thick, and again I stumbled across these patterns you should structure your cards in on the table. Everything more complicated than past – present – future was not my cup of tea at that time and I thought maybe the patterns don’t matter that much when I approached every card I drew with a certain question in the first place. So I threw the convoluted rules I had read about online and in books overboard and started to concentrate on the cards themselves.
And that was when I learned why the Rider Waite deck didn’t work for me. The cards were just too plain. Lo and behold my eyes need a lot of stuff to view and to get lost in. They need leafy or cloudy patterns, twigs, little mushrooms, squirrels, reflections, tiny details to discover. Then and only then I could focus on working with the cards, let all the symbols flow into my mind.
The first moral of this story is that the wide range of divination techniques is just a catalogue of proposals, and so are all the tools. And the second one is that it is completely fine to go astray from a well established path if it works better for you.
Have a nice day guys! 🙂
Yay! It’s my birthday next month so I decided I want to learn something new and treat me with a beautiful gift aswell (which kind of fits in like a crystal ball :D)! I ordered my first acrylic contact juggling ball.
Contact juggling is an art I loved ever since I saw Kelvin Kalvus perform the first time!
Basically it’s balancing acrylic balls and letting them roll and glide all over your arms and torso, performing little tricks. Maybe I’m talented enough to show that off, or maybe not and I’m just gonna pratice for myself, I don’t care as long as I have fun with it 😀
I’m really excited and can’t wait to start practicing!
It was some years ago when I stumbled across this composer named Peter Gundry and his amazing collection of wild and beautiful music!
That’s what you hear in the background of my dwelling almost all the time. Archaic music 🙂
And because one song is never enough … this here 😀 By Antti Martikainen.
As you might imagine I love Blackmore’s Night 😀 And when I began getting more into witchcraft, folk tales and all sorts of magical stuff they were very influencial on me. Especially Candice Night’s voice caught me instantly and look at her beauty! She’s marvellous! 🙂
Honestly, this is so satisfying to watch 😀
At least I’m planning to 😉
Of course I ended up getting Skyrim and while browsing through my massive pile of shame I thought I could do a little bit of streaming later this spring. I can’t say at which definitive point because I’m always a bit too busy. But it’s definitely gonna happen and I’ll try to focus on viking/fantasy games only, although I cannot promise to avoid the occasional round of Overwatch every now and then 😉
While I would love to I don’t know how to do some creative streams with my setup.
As software I’m going to use OBS because I know this best from my screen-capturing adventures doing some german let’s plays and therefore I hope I’ll be able to make some nice overlays! 😀
How awesome would it be to make some cool fanart on stream or to team up with someone (whom I already have in mind ^^) for some multiplayer fun?! Exactly!
But until then there are tons of stuff to do, pendants to make, necklaces to assemble, so I think it’s probably going to be late april or may. I might even put some (pagan and fantasy-related!) gaming stuff on my YouTube channel. But that’s a whole other story 😉
The last weeks I felt the urge to buy a new game: The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim
But here’s the thing: I already got some games I love to play and I’ve always a lot of stuff to do, a lot of things to catch up to and so I’m quite busy, but on the other hand I’d love to get in touch with the story. It’s an old game but they have loads of patches enhancing the graphics, but this, but that, but then again 😀
I’m sure some of you may know this kind of silly struggle 😉
Nevertheless, the whole Elder Scrolls thing is something I’d love to dive into in the near future, especially since there are loads of awesome weapons, armors and general cotume ideas to find!
Until I can make my decision I’m probably gonna listen to the soundtrack for some time and doodle on my face a bit because it’s about time to create some new facepaint pics… and maybe I can do something Skyrim inspired… hm!
Now that’s an old one (13 years!) but when I first came across this song I loved it instantly! Maybe some will find it tacky but as always I don’t care as long as I like it 😉
That’s a crazy one! Being a sibling of two cats myself some good amounts of cat hair try to pile up in my home, especially with my boy Loki being a norwegian forest cat. I think the author of this video had a similar problem and came up with a rather extraordinary solution: A knife handle made from cat hair (and epoxy of course).
Joiking (or “yoiking”) is a form of singing, sung by the Sami people from the nordic countries. Technically it’s related to yodeling and a joik is used to evoke or portray certain places, people or animals. Researchers believe it’s the oldest music tradition of Europe that’s still being carried on.
While being associated with pre-christian shamans and rituals this technique was considered sinful during the era of christianisation, which lead to a devolution of the tradition. But nevertheless, this tradition lives on because it’s so deeply rooted within the culture of the Sami, with a joik being especially made for a person when he or she is born.
To understand it better, they say that you “joik a person” and not “about a person”, which comes quite close to evoking and conjuring. And in the case above, the singer Jon Henrik Fjällgren joiks his late friend Daniel.
It’s not so much about the words, more about the feelings and the melody you can create by joiking, which I find an amazing way to bridge language gaps 🙂
Hope you enjoyed this little cultural trip and you all have a great day 🙂
Just sharing this beautiful piece of music 🙂
I was asked to make another vase and so I did!
Some may know this depiction: It’s the green man who can be found in numerous gothic churches all around europe!
He’s associated with the celts and mistle toes and nature, and I like to think of him as a concept of manhood and fertility.
You take one big onion, cut it into pieces and throw it into a pot with some butter or oil, salt and pepper. While it’s heating up you take a celery root, peel it, cut it into pieces and throw it into the pot, too. The same goes for parsley root, four carrots and leek. You’ll need a bit more salt than you would expect but you can always taste what you do. So you’ll boil everything down until it’s an almost unrecognisable mass. It’s ok, I promise.
For the next steps it depends on what you’re wanting to do. A thick stew needs beans and potatoes or pearl barley. Soups need noodles or rice, or also potatoes but less. Once decided, you’ll estimate how much water you’re going to add. When you’re a bit afraid you can add it sip by sip. Don’t forget to taste your work! If you’re one modern person you can use one of these wand blenders but you don’t have to. The soup will just turn out fine. When you got your broth done you can also add more green vegetables to it. And of course you could add mettwurst, beef shank or whatever you might like. And if you don’t just keep it that way.
You may have noticed there are no additional seasonings because you don’t need them. Just add all the herbs you like and be aware that you might need more because your tongue is still used to taste some artificial stuff 😉
Have a good one!
Boy, I haven’t listened to this in ages, at least it feels like it! Fehu is part of the album “Runaljöd – Yggdrasil” by Wardruna.
I know this palette is old but look at all these colors! *___*
Since spring is coming and with it the new medieval market season I’m very excited to try these shadows out. This year I want to up my make up game a bit and try some more exaggerated looks both for photos and on markets, and maybe I can review some stuff or make a tutorial or two, who knows 😀 This youtube account of mine waits to be filled with stuff!
By only touching these baked shadows they give off a good amount of color. I think I’ll be able to vary the intensity by using either a brush or an applicator sponge while packing on the color, and maybe also by wetting the brush, which is also recommended when using baked eyeshadows.
The colors probably aren’t for everyone’s every day use due to their shimmery complexion, but on the plus side they’re allergy tested and cruelty-free, and I love to see that in my make-up case 😀
In case you want to grab one here’s the US-Link
And the DE-Link
Have a great day you guys, I’m gonna get all sparkly after pushing all sorts of stuff around today due to spring cleaning 😀
I can’t speak polish for shit to be honest 😀 But I found this intriguing summer solstice-themed song and felt like sharing it 🙂
|Hej na wzgórze, na to wzgórze, nocel mała, kopiel moja
Tam dziewczęta się schodziły, nocel mała, kopiel moja
Sobie ogień nałozyły, nocel mała, kopiel moja
Tam ich północ ciemna naszła, nocel mała, kopiel moja
Tam na górze ogień gore, nocel mała, kopiel moja
Na tej górze dwoje drzewa, nocel mała, kopiel moja
Dwoje drzewa, boże drzewa, nocel mała, kopiel moja
Bo dziś słońce święto miewa, nocel mała, kopiel moja
|Hey upon the hill, on that hill, short night, my midsummernight
There the girls had gathered, short night, my midsummernight
The had established the fire, short night, my midsummernight
There the midnight dark had encroached them, short night, my midsummernight
There on that hill the glowing fire, short night, my midsummernight
Upon that hill two trees, short night, my midsummernight
Two trees, trees of the gods, short night, my midsummernight
For today the Sun has a festival, short night, my midsummernight
People who inspire me come from all sorts of places. I thought I might introduce them to you because maybe you get some inspirational kick out of their creations like me 🙂
The first of them is Kandee Johnson. She’s a make up artist on youtube, famous for her transformations into all sorts of people, existing and fictional, like
Anyone who knows me for five minutes probably notices that I’m a huge make up / sfx-make up nerd. I love everything that makes you pretty, ugly, scary, creepy, magical, mossy… One of my new year’s resolution for 2018 is to get more into makeup artistry by the way ❤ and I’ve been like this for almost 20 years. When I stumbled over Kandee’s youtube account I absorbed everything she did in her videos, learned about the products and where to get cheaper alternatives because who can afford everything MAC when you’re at school right? 😀
What strikes me the most is her positivity and her bubbly personality, but also her skills and her eye for how to transform what you have into what you want to have, not only on the canvas which is her face but also in her life.
I think I’m gonna introduce more of my favorite inspirations to you, hopefully regularly on fridays 😀
Have a great day!
Did I already mention I love working with bronze clay? Because this is what you can make of it! 😀
Feathers are connected to the element of air, and if you ever saw one floating through the air you’re gonna know why: They are so light and delicate!
But instead of being considered as weak they are often regarded as a symbol of power. Take a look at the amazin feather headdresses of native american peoplee for example!
The german language aswell as the english language know a saying stating “to adorn onesself with borrowed plumes” / “sich mit fremden Federn schmücken”, the french language has “se parer des plumes de paon” (transl. “to adorn onesself with peacock feathers”), giving feathers the status of something you’d need to earn or grow for yourself instead of simply picking them up from the ground or plucking them out from a bird.
In ancient egypt the feather was equivalent to the truth. After death a person’s soul would be weighed and compared to the feather of Maat, the goddess of justice and truth. Sins would have made your soul quite heavy in these days.
Not to forget about mother Hulda / Frau Holle. She shakes out her pillows and feathers float down to earth in the form of snow flakes. Her fairytale is about justice and teaching you to be hardworking and helpful.
The earrings you see in the picture above can be purchased via etsy:
Have a great day guys!
Projects like these are what I love most!
I was asked if I could do the Hand of the King and I did 😀 Well it’s not done yet but I’m a bit further than what you can see in the picture above. The blade is thicker and I started to shape it into a triangular form, the decoration of the sleeve is more carved out by now and the veiny structure on the back of the hand got carved out a bit more. I still need to add the swirly pattern and the ridges and creases on the outer side of the ring and then fire it in my kiln!
In the beginning I made a silicon mold to get the rough shape of the original brooch and to spare me from shaping a perfect circle 😛 After the the mold was cured I put some release agent and a good portion of Prometheus White Bronze Clay into it and let it sit for some minutes to dry to make it easier to remove the piece from the mold. And right now the soon-to-be-brooch sits on my table drying. You put water on a bronze clay piece to make it shapeable and let it dry when you are done with a certain area to prevent any deformation when working on another area.
Before finally firing the brooch I decided I should make a little pendant or a ring as a test just to make sure the kiln, the coal and the temperature are just right. Boy am I excited 😀 That’s exactly what I want to do with my stuff 🙂
An overview of different historic lunula pendants:
Maybe I can make some of these in the future 🙂
Just stumbled over this one via Facebook. Thought I had to share it because it’s awesome! 😀
Not so wicked, only for the sake of the pun 😛
I have several wigs and I love them, as you might imagine. They enable me to change my type instantly and without the need of going to a hairdresser or putting chemicals on my head or even cutting large chunks off of me 😀
I have the following in my collection:
plus several hair pieces and I definitely plan on expanding it 😀
My next wig project is getting my fake dread locks battle ready. I don’t want to braid them in because I just don’t want to wear these dreads every day and I fear installing them permanently could damage my own hair and cause too much wear on the dreads. So what I came up with, at least for the lower part of my head is this:
I think we all know these clips you fasten clip-in extensions with. I plan on sewing my dreads onto them in order to make them quickly removable. I have a plan on how to cover the top of my head too but it’s not too perfect yet. But I’d love to have a head full of fake-dreads and feathers and beads for a very shamanic outfit I’m dreaming of.
So that’s my sunday plan! 🙂
I doubt I can ever write enough about the runes.
One can carve them, one can sing them, one can write them, one can tattoo them, one can use them as a writing system, one can try and predict the future with them.
I prefer them for blessing and protection purpose, others put them in elaborate patterns to see what is yet to come.
Their origin is a fascinating one. The god Odin hung himself into a tree and the runes appeared to him in his mind, which is a very shamanistic experience if you ask me, especially considering that the norse gods are actually able to physically die.
What makes the runes so special is also the fact that they not only have a phonetic value but also a meaning, with “Uruz” 𐌿 for example being pronounced as “u” but also meaning “rain” (Icelandic) and of course “aurochs” (Old English).
The runeset above was made a few days ago with my new pyrography tool. This technique feels new and old at the same time, I like to compare it with heating up a knife over a fire and pressing it into wooden disks. Which is certainly something our ancestors were capable of 😉
Although this song came out in 2000 (which was effing 18 years ago…! I’m old.) i still love to listen to it, and I think it’s my favorite from the whole album.
In case you don’t know Hagalaz Runedance I suggest you give them a try. I’m very much in love with all the five albums that exist.
As most of you might already know, at least when you follow my Instagram, I like to dress up in the craziest ways. It officially started when I decided over 15 years ago it’d be awesome to go on medieval markets and actually look like I belonged. At that time I owned two long skirts and two blouses and that was it. And somewhen along the way I simply grabbed new costume parts whenever I stumbled across them.
I got quite creative when it comes to acquiring new costume parts. For example I like to crawl through ebay and search for dresses, tops and pants that I can modify or even leave them as they are when they look awesome. Second hand clothes are a great way to save money and re-purpose things that are still perfectly fine. Apart from ebay I frequently visit flea markets, Facebook groups and stores. And since I oftentimes dress crazily even without going to a festival or market, so these clothes ain’t no dead capital 😀
Btw who would have thought that collecting swords and all sorts of decorative weapons would pay someday 😉
The next thing I do is making stuff myself. I sit on a pile of leather pieces and am able to crochet, sew and glue all sorts of stuff together. Whenever there’s an opportunity I grab things one can add to normal pieces of clothing like faux fur trim or sequins and beads, even textile colors, buttons, wool, you name it. In case I need something specific there’s always Amazon or my preferred arts ‘n craft store where I can order stuff or get the right kind of glue in case I need a specific one.
Dollar stores are a great thing too. They often sell weird stuff like fur cuffs, decorative stones, beads, buttons, and all sorts of thingamabobs that are potential props.
My dad handed me down a huge collection of tools which always come in handy when crafting. But I always keep my eyes peeled for new stuff and plan ahead what I might need. After getting my kiln and some rotary tools, engraving tools and such I definitely still want an airbrush, a hot air gun, a torch and some other glass bead making tools… the wishlist always expands, the more shit I buy I suppose 😀
A great aide is my tailor’s dummy on which costumes can be arranged. It’s not exactly my size but it really comes in handy while draping things over other things. Never underestimate the power of sticky velcro by the way ^^
With the internet at hand the possibilities are almost unlimited, even if your budget is. When you have loads of friends working in differend fields it’s very likely they can supply you with material for cheap or even free. And in return you maybe can do something for them.
I’ll be glad to answer to your comments down in the comment section in case you have questions or tips’n tricks or want to show off some of your work!
These glorious beads just went into my shop today!
In case you’re addicted to any viking related social media page like I am you’ve certainly come across these beautiful beads people use to adorn their beards and manes with. And since I got a bit obsessed with them I decided they’d be a perfect addition for my etsy shop. So in case you might want to own one (or two, or three :D) for yourself you can follow the link below or click on the image above to directly get to my shop and grab your runic bead 🙂
Remember when I asked you to show me some viking anime goodness?
Well, one of my friends actually showed me this trailer for the anime
“The Great Adventure of Horus, Prince of the Sun”
That title sounds somewhat egyptian, but nevertheless, it’s set in a northern kingdom which is not further defined. In the beginning the protagonist is Horus (“Hols”) is fighting a pack of silver wolves, accidentally waking up a stone giant named Mogue (or Rockoar, depending on which version of the movie you’re watching). He pulls a splinter from the giant’s shoulder which, lo and behold, turns out to be a rusty old sword, which in case of being re-forged will not only return to its old glory of being the Sword of the Sun, but also will the giant return to Horus who will in turn be called Prince of the Sun.
Horus’ father confesses on his deathbed that their family came from a northern seaside village that had been destroyed by an ice devil named Grunwald, leaving Horus’ family being the sole survivors of this slaughter. And of course the father urges Horus to go back to their old village to seek revenge…
The anime is from 1968 and although the animation technique of that time was amazing it’s definitely not like modern day anime with all the waifus and bishis 😉 But in case you know Studio Ghibli, you might find it interesting that this movie was the first major film of Hayao Miazaki, who is well-known for masterpieces like Princess Mononoke, Howl’s Moving Castle, Grave of the Fireflies and Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind, to name a few.
There is a UK DVD release of this movie, which you can order on amazon. In fact two versions seem to exist, but I couldn’t make out any difference except from the cover and title:
I’m definitely gonna grab a copy of this and enjoy this strange mix of egyptian, viking and japanese epic!
See ya hopefully very soon and in case you own this anime already, leave a comment how you liked it, I’d really love to know! 🙂
See ya soon! 🙂
I just finished several pairs of these cute earrings!
Huginn and Muninn are the two ravens of Odin. Huginn came from the old norse word “huga” – “to think”, the noun being “hugi” – “Thought, Sense”. Muninn belongs to the old norse verb of “muna” – “thinking of, remembering”. These ravens are said to sit on Odin’s shoulders, telling them everything they see and hear.
These names definitely make sense in the context of ravens. These birds are incredibly intelligent, being able to use tools and conclude how to solve new problems! ❤
If you want to grab a pair of these really sweet little birds just click on the picture above or on the following link to directly get teleported into my etsy store!
Have a great day! 🙂
Late night documentary watching (and almond-eating 😀 )!
The history of the Ulfberht swords is quite interesting, it even got plagiarized with different variants of spelling the name “Ulfberht” which is embossed in the blade. Definitely recommend to watch some documentaries about this!
Ah the new year has begun and I’m quite busy working, putting together one necklace after the other at the moment and getting way too less sleep 😀 But nevertheless I enjoy what I’m doing, especially because I re-discovered a long lost passion: watching anime.
At the moment I’m watching “The ancient magus’ bride” (魔法使いの嫁 Mahō Tsukai no Yome), a series about a girl who experienced a lot of suffering in her past because she was different. She sells herself into slavery and gets bought by strange man with a creature’s skull for a head, who is surprisingly nice to her and she becomes his apprentice AND he wants her to be his bride. You can watch the 13 episodes for free on crunchyroll by the way, which I learned to love over the past weeks!
Maybe I can find some norse themed anime, that’d be awesome! In case you know any just drop me a comment below and I’m gonna check them out 🙂
I wish you all a merry christmas, a great yule celebration, an amazing solstice… !
I’d say no 😀
I do some crafting that has something to do with re-enactment and I definitely like the scientific aspects of my hobbies and my lifestyle so I do come in contact with experimental archaeology and such, but I don’t think I would label myself as a re-enactor.
What I do is, I take historical concepts and approach them with my modern day knowledge of things. Since I speak several languages I can determine origins of words and put them in a historical context and I also love to grab old designs and put them into a new environment, like making imprints of replicas and rework pendants for example into earrings or take patterns and put them onto something new. Re-enactment is preserving old techniques and knowledge. I like to go a step further and combine it with today.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think re-enactment is outdated. Without it I wouldn’t be able to create half of the things I do. It’s just that the concept of not “being allowed” to use modern tools and knowledge is too narrow for me.
Also I do not “act”. Everything you see on my Instagram, Facebook and my blog is me, without acting. I live like this, not for the sake of science or to prove or disprove something. It’s my everyday life. I don’t feel the obligation of displaying how much knowledge I accumulated and which fields I studied in.
There’s a certain trend in the re-enactment scene where everyone tries to be smarter than everyone else, having all the sources ready to be quoted but I don’t engage in this either.
I simply want to be myself, be creative, run around in whatever outfit I deem fit for me and paint my face with eyeliner whenever I desire to. I’m not competing against anyone.
Well… what shall I say 😉 I guess something along the lines of “Do not humanize animals!” … but then again, we’re just monkeys in shoes ourselves 😛