The struggle is real: Skyrim

The last weeks I felt the urge to buy a new game: The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim

But here’s the thing: I already got some games I love to play and I’ve always a lot of stuff to do, a lot of things to catch up to and so I’m quite busy, but on the other hand I’d love to get in touch with the story. It’s an old game but they have loads of patches enhancing the graphics, but this, but that, but then again 馃榾

I’m sure some of you may know this kind of silly struggle 馃槈

Nevertheless, the whole Elder Scrolls thing is something I’d love to dive into in the near future, especially since there are loads of awesome weapons, armors and general cotume ideas to find!

Until I can make my decision I’m probably gonna listen to the soundtrack for some time and doodle on my face a bit because it’s about time to create some new facepaint pics… and maybe I can do something Skyrim inspired… hm!

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[Music] Spiral Rhythm – I am pagan

Now that’s an old one (13 years!) but when I first came across this song I loved it instantly! Maybe some will find it tacky but as always I don’t care as long as I like it 馃槈



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[Crafty] Cat hair knife

That’s a crazy one! Being a sibling of two cats myself some good amounts of cat hair try to pile up in my home, especially with my boy Loki being a norwegian forest cat. I think the author of this video had a similar problem and came up with a rather extraordinary solution: A knife handle made from cat hair (and epoxy of course).


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The Joik

Joiking (or “yoiking”) is a form of singing, sung by the Sami people from the nordic countries. Technically it’s related to yodeling and a joik is used to evoke or portray certain places, people or animals. Researchers believe it’s the oldest music tradition of Europe that’s still being carried on.

While being associated with pre-christian shamans and rituals this technique was considered sinful during the era of christianisation, which lead to a devolution of the tradition. But nevertheless, this tradition lives on because it’s so deeply rooted within the culture of the Sami, with a joik being especially made for a person when he or she is born.

To understand it better, they say that you “joik a person” and not “about a person”, which comes quite close to evoking and conjuring. And in the case above, the singer Jon Henrik Fj盲llgren joiks his late friend Daniel.

It’s not so much about the words, more about the feelings and the melody you can create by joiking, which I find an amazing way to bridge language gaps 馃檪

Hope you enjoyed this little cultural trip and you all have a great day 馃檪

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[Music] Emian – A Winter’s Tale / Satiro e la Ninfa

Just sharing this beautiful piece of music 馃檪

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The Green Man – Vase

I was asked to make another vase and so I did!

Some may know this depiction: It’s the green man who can be found in numerous gothic churches all around europe!

He’s associated with the celts and mistle toes and nature, and I like to think of him as a concept of manhood and fertility.

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How I make soup!

You take one big onion, cut it into pieces and throw it into a pot with some butter or oil, salt and pepper. While it’s heating up you take a celery root, peel it, cut it into pieces and throw it into the pot, too. The same goes for parsley root, four carrots and leek. You’ll need a bit more salt than you would expect but you can always taste what you do. So you’ll boil everything down until it’s an almost unrecognisable mass. It’s ok, I promise.
For the next steps it depends on what you’re wanting to do. A thick stew needs beans and potatoes or pearl barley. Soups need noodles or rice, or also potatoes but less. Once decided, you’ll estimate how much water you’re going to add. When you’re a bit afraid you can add it sip by sip. Don’t forget to taste your work! If you’re one modern person you can use one of these wand blenders but you don’t have to. The soup will just turn out fine. When you got your broth done you can also add more green vegetables to it. And of course you could add mettwurst, beef shank or whatever you might like. And if you don’t just keep it that way.


You may have noticed there are no additional seasonings because you don’t need them. Just add all the herbs you like and be aware that you might need more because your tongue is still used to taste some artificial stuff 馃槈

Have a good one!


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[Music] Wardruna – Fehu

Boy, I haven’t listened to this in ages, at least it feels like it! Fehu is part of the album “Runalj枚d – Yggdrasil” by Wardruna.




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All the planets :D

I know this palette is old but look at all these colors! *___*

Since spring is coming and with it the new medieval market season I’m very excited to try these shadows out. This year I want to up my make up game a bit and try some more exaggerated looks both for photos and on markets, and maybe I can review some stuff or make a tutorial or two, who knows 馃榾 This youtube account of mine waits to be filled with stuff!

By only touching these baked shadows they give off a good amount of color. I think I’ll be able to vary the intensity by using either a brush or an applicator sponge while packing on the color, and maybe also by wetting the brush, which is also recommended when using baked eyeshadows.

The colors probably aren’t for everyone’s every day use due to their shimmery complexion, but on the plus side they’re allergy tested and cruelty-free, and I love to see that in my make-up case 馃榾

In case you want to grab one here’s the US-Link

And the DE-Link


Have a great day you guys, I’m gonna get all sparkly after pushing all sorts of stuff around today due to spring cleaning 馃榾

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[Music] Jar – Hej na wzg贸rze


I can’t speak polish for shit to be honest 馃榾 But I found this intriguing summer solstice-themed song and felt like sharing it 馃檪



Hej na wzg贸rze, na to wzg贸rze, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Tam dziewcz臋ta si臋 schodzi艂y, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Sobie ogie艅 na艂ozy艂y, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Tam ich p贸艂noc ciemna nasz艂a, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Tam na g贸rze ogie艅 gore, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Na tej g贸rze dwoje drzewa, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Dwoje drzewa, bo偶e drzewa, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Bo dzi艣 s艂o艅ce 艣wi臋to miewa, nocel ma艂a, kopiel moja

Hey upon the hill, on that hill, short night, my midsummernight

There the girls had gathered, short night, my midsummernight

The had established the fire, short night, my midsummernight

There the midnight dark had encroached them, short night, my midsummernight

There on that hill the glowing fire, short night, my midsummernight

Upon that hill two trees, short night, my midsummernight

Two trees, trees of the gods, short night, my midsummernight

For today the Sun has a festival, short night, my midsummernight

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[Inspirational Friday] Kandee Johnson

People who inspire me come from all sorts of places. I thought I might introduce them to you because maybe you get some inspirational kick out of their creations like me 馃檪

The first of them is Kandee Johnson. She’s a make up artist on youtube, famous for her transformations into all sorts of people, existing and fictional, like


Edward Scissorhands


Anyone who knows me for five minutes probably notices that I’m a huge make up / sfx-make up nerd. I love everything that makes you pretty, ugly, scary, creepy, magical, mossy… One of my new year’s resolution for 2018 is聽 to get more into makeup artistry by the way 鉂ぢ and I’ve been like this for almost 20 years. When I stumbled over Kandee’s youtube account I absorbed everything she did in her videos, learned about the products and where to get cheaper alternatives because who can afford everything MAC when you’re at school right? 馃榾

What strikes me the most is her positivity and her bubbly personality, but also her skills and her eye for how to transform what you have into what you want to have, not only on the canvas which is her face but also in her life.


I think I’m gonna introduce more of my favorite inspirations to you, hopefully regularly on fridays 馃榾


Have a great day!

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Feather Earrings

feather earrings branded

These beautiful feather earrings are now available in my shop!
Just click on the pic or the following linknk at the end of the article 馃檪

Did I already mention I love working with bronze clay? Because this is what you can make of it! 馃榾

Feathers are connected to the element of air, and if you ever saw one floating through the air you’re gonna know why: They are so light and delicate!

But instead of being considered as weak they are often regarded as a symbol of power. Take a look at the amazin feather headdresses of native american peoplee for example!

The german language aswell as the english language know a saying stating “to adorn onesself with borrowed plumes” / “sich mit fremden Federn schm眉cken”, the french language has “se parer des plumes de paon” (transl. “to adorn onesself with peacock feathers”), giving feathers the status of something you’d need to earn or grow for yourself instead of simply picking them up from the ground or plucking them out from a bird.

In ancient egypt the feather was equivalent to the truth. After death a person’s soul would be weighed and compared to the feather of Maat, the goddess of justice and truth. Sins would have made your soul quite heavy in these days.

Not to forget about mother Hulda / Frau Holle. She shakes out her pillows and feathers float down to earth in the form of snow flakes. Her fairytale is about justice and teaching you to be hardworking and helpful.

The earrings you see in the picture above can be purchased via etsy:


Have a great day guys!

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Game of Thrones – Hand of the King

Projects like these are what I love most!

I was asked if I could do the Hand of the King and I did 馃榾 Well it’s not done yet but I’m a bit further than what you can see in the picture above. The blade is thicker and I started to shape it into a triangular form, the decoration of the sleeve is more carved out by now and the veiny structure on the back of the hand got carved out a bit more. I still need to add the swirly pattern and the ridges and creases on the outer side of the ring and then fire it in my kiln!

In the beginning I made a silicon mold to get the rough shape of the original brooch and to spare me from shaping a perfect circle 馃槢 After the the mold was cured I put some release agent and a good portion of Prometheus White Bronze Clay into it and let it sit for some minutes to dry to make it easier to remove the piece from the mold. And right now the soon-to-be-brooch sits on my table drying. You put water on a bronze clay piece to make it shapeable and let it dry when you are done with a certain area to prevent any deformation when working on another area.

Before finally firing the brooch I decided I should make a little pendant or a ring as a test just to make sure the kiln, the coal and the temperature are just right. Boy am I excited 馃榾 That’s exactly what I want to do with my stuff 馃檪

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An overview of different historic lunula pendants:


Maybe I can make some of these in the future 馃檪

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[Music] Kalevala – Nagryanuli

Just stumbled over this one via Facebook. Thought I had to share it because it’s awesome! 馃榾

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Some wicked wig adventures…

Not so wicked, only for the sake of the pun聽 馃槢

I have several wigs and I love them, as you might imagine. They enable me to change my type instantly and without the need of going to a hairdresser or putting chemicals on my head or even cutting large chunks off of me 馃榾

I have the following in my collection:

plus several hair pieces and I definitely plan on expanding it 馃榾

My next wig project is getting my fake dread locks battle ready. I don’t want to braid them in because I just don’t want to wear these dreads every day and I fear installing them permanently could damage my own hair and cause too much wear on the dreads. So what I came up with, at least for the lower part of my head is this:

I think we all know these clips you fasten clip-in extensions with. I plan on sewing my dreads onto them in order to make them quickly removable. I have a plan on how to cover the top of my head too but it’s not too perfect yet. But I’d love to have a head full of fake-dreads and feathers and beads for a very shamanic outfit I’m dreaming of.

So that’s my sunday plan! 馃檪

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Runes @ etsy

I doubt I can ever write enough about the runes.

One can carve them, one can sing them, one can write them, one can tattoo them, one can use them as a writing system, one can try and predict the future with them.

I prefer them for blessing and protection purpose, others put them in elaborate patterns to see what is yet to come.

Their origin is a fascinating one. The god Odin hung himself into a tree and the runes appeared to him in his mind, which is a very shamanistic experience if you ask me, especially considering that the norse gods are actually able to physically die.

What makes the runes so special is also the fact that they not only have a phonetic value but also a meaning, with “Uruz”聽饜尶聽 for example being pronounced as “u” but also meaning “rain” (Icelandic) and of course “aurochs” (Old English).

The runeset above was made a few days ago with my new pyrography tool. This technique feels new and old at the same time, I like to compare it with heating up a knife over a fire and pressing it into wooden disks. Which is certainly something our ancestors were capable of 馃槈

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[Music] Hagalaz Runedance – Wake Skadi


Although this song came out in 2000 (which was effing 18 years ago…! I’m old.) i still love to listen to it, and I think it’s my favorite from the whole album.

In case you don’t know Hagalaz Runedance I suggest you give them a try. I’m very much in love with all the five albums that exist.

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The costumes and me

As most of you might already know, at least when you follow my Instagram, I like to dress up in the craziest ways. It officially started when I decided over 15 years ago it’d be awesome to go on medieval markets and actually look like I belonged. At that time I owned two long skirts and two blouses and that was it. And somewhen along the way I simply grabbed new costume parts whenever I stumbled across them.

I got quite creative when it comes to acquiring new costume parts. For example I like to crawl through ebay and search for dresses, tops and pants that I can modify or even leave them as they are when they look awesome. Second hand clothes are a great way to save money and re-purpose things that are still perfectly fine. Apart from ebay I frequently visit flea markets, Facebook groups and stores. And since I oftentimes dress crazily even without going to a festival or market, so these clothes ain’t no dead capital 馃榾
Btw who would have thought that collecting swords and all sorts of decorative weapons would pay someday 馃槈

The next thing I do is making stuff myself. I sit on a pile of leather pieces and am able to crochet, sew and glue all sorts of stuff together. Whenever there’s an opportunity I grab things one can add to normal pieces of clothing like faux fur trim or sequins and beads, even textile colors, buttons, wool, you name it. In case I need something specific there’s always Amazon or my preferred arts ‘n craft store where I can order stuff or get the right kind of glue in case I need a specific one.

Dollar stores are a great thing too. They often sell weird stuff like fur cuffs, decorative stones, beads, buttons, and all sorts of thingamabobs that are potential props.

My dad handed me down a huge collection of tools which always come in handy when crafting. But I always keep my eyes peeled for new stuff and plan ahead what I might need. After getting my kiln and some rotary tools, engraving tools and such I definitely still want an airbrush, a hot air gun, a torch and some other glass bead making tools… the wishlist always expands, the more shit I buy I suppose 馃榾

A great aide is my tailor’s dummy on which costumes can be arranged. It’s not exactly my size but it really comes in handy while draping things over other things. Never underestimate the power of sticky velcro by the way ^^

With the internet at hand the possibilities are almost unlimited, even if your budget is. When you have loads of friends working in differend fields it’s very likely they can supply you with material for cheap or even free. And in return you maybe can do something for them.


I’ll be glad to answer to your comments down in the comment section in case you have questions or tips’n tricks or want to show off some of your work!

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Beard and hair beads <3


These glorious beads just went into my shop today!

In case you’re addicted to any viking related social media page like I am you’ve certainly come across these beautiful beads people use to adorn their beards and manes with. And since I got a bit obsessed with them I decided they’d be a perfect addition for my etsy shop. So in case you might want to own one (or two, or three :D) for yourself you can follow the link below or click on the image above to directly get to my shop and grab your runic bead 馃檪

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Viking Anime <3

Remember when I asked you to show me some viking anime goodness?

Well, one of my friends actually showed me this trailer for the anime

“The Great Adventure of Horus, Prince of the Sun”

That title sounds somewhat egyptian, but nevertheless, it’s set in a northern kingdom which is not further defined. In the beginning the protagonist is Horus (“Hols”) is fighting a pack of silver wolves, accidentally waking up a stone giant named Mogue (or Rockoar, depending on which version of the movie you’re watching). He pulls a splinter from the giant’s shoulder which, lo and behold, turns out to be a rusty old sword, which in case of being re-forged will not only return to its old glory of being the Sword of the Sun, but also will the giant return to Horus who will in turn be called Prince of the Sun.

Horus’ father confesses on his deathbed that their family came from a northern seaside village that had been destroyed by an ice devil named Grunwald, leaving Horus’ family being the sole survivors of this slaughter. And of course the father urges Horus to go back to their old village to seek revenge…

The anime is from 1968 and although the animation technique of that time was amazing it’s definitely not like modern day anime with all the waifus and bishis 馃槈 But in case you know Studio Ghibli, you might find it interesting that this movie was the first major film of Hayao Miazaki, who is well-known for masterpieces like Princess Mononoke, Howl’s Moving Castle, Grave of the Fireflies and Nausica盲 of the Valley of the Wind, to name a few.

There is a UK DVD release of this movie, which you can order on amazon. In fact two versions seem to exist, but I couldn’t make out any difference except from the cover and title:

little norse prince
(click image to buy on amazon*)


horus prince of the sun
(click image to buy on amazon*)

I’m definitely gonna grab a copy of this and enjoy this strange mix of egyptian, viking and japanese epic!

See ya hopefully very soon and in case you own this anime already, leave a comment how you liked it, I’d really love to know! 馃檪


See ya soon! 馃檪

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[New] Huginn & Muninn earrings!

I just finished several pairs of these cute earrings!

Huginn and Muninn are the two ravens of Odin. Huginn came from the old norse word “huga” – “to think”, the noun being “hugi” – “Thought, Sense”. Muninn belongs to the old norse verb of “muna” – “thinking of, remembering”. These ravens are said to sit on Odin’s shoulders, telling them everything they see and hear.

These names definitely make sense in the context of ravens. These birds are incredibly intelligent, being able to use tools and conclude how to solve new problems! 鉂

If you want to grab a pair of these really sweet little birds just click on the picture above or on the following link to directly get teleported into my etsy store!


Have a great day! 馃檪

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The Ulfberht Sword – Documentary

Late night documentary watching (and almond-eating 馃榾 )!


The history of the Ulfberht swords is quite interesting, it even got plagiarized with different variants of spelling the name “Ulfberht” which is embossed in the blade. Definitely recommend to watch some documentaries about this!

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I’m not dead! :D

Ah the new year has begun and I’m quite busy working, putting together one necklace after the other at the moment and getting way too less sleep 馃榾 But nevertheless I enjoy what I’m doing, especially because I re-discovered a long lost passion: watching anime.

At the moment I’m watching “The ancient magus’ bride” (榄旀硶浣裤亜銇珌聽Mah艒 Tsukai no Yome), a series about a girl who experienced a lot of suffering in her past because she was different. She sells herself into slavery and gets bought by strange man with a creature’s skull for a head, who is surprisingly nice to her and she becomes his apprentice AND he wants her to be his bride. You can watch the 13 episodes for free on crunchyroll by the way, which I learned to love over the past weeks!

ancientmagusbride(Click on the image to go directly to

Maybe I can find some norse themed anime, that’d be awesome! In case you know any just drop me a comment below and I’m gonna check them out 馃檪


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Have a great one!



I wish you all a merry christmas, a great yule celebration, an amazing solstice…聽 !

Be blessed!

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Am I a re-enactor?

I’d say no 馃榾

I do some crafting that has something to do with re-enactment and I definitely like the scientific aspects of my hobbies and my lifestyle so I do come in contact with experimental archaeology and such, but I don’t think I would label myself as a re-enactor.

What I do is, I take historical concepts and approach them with my modern day knowledge of things. Since I speak several languages I can determine origins of words and put them in a historical context and I also love to grab old designs and put them into a new environment, like making imprints of replicas and rework pendants for example into earrings or take patterns and put them onto something new. Re-enactment is preserving old techniques and knowledge. I like to go a step further and combine it with today.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think re-enactment is outdated. Without it I wouldn’t be able to create half of the things I do. It’s just that the concept of not “being allowed” to use modern tools and knowledge is too narrow for me.

Also I do not “act”. Everything you see on my Instagram, Facebook and my blog is me, without acting. I live like this, not for the sake of science or to prove or disprove something. It’s my everyday life. I don’t feel the obligation of displaying how much knowledge I accumulated and which fields I studied in.

There’s a certain trend in the re-enactment scene where everyone tries to be smarter than everyone else, having all the sources ready to be quoted but I don’t engage in this either.

I simply want to be myself, be creative, run around in whatever outfit I deem fit for me and paint my face with eyeliner whenever I desire to. I’m not competing against anyone.

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Gibbon vs. Tiger Cubs


Well… what shall I say 馃槈 I guess something along the lines of “Do not humanize animals!” … but then again, we’re just monkeys in shoes ourselves 馃槢

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[Music] S.J. Tucker – Firebird’s Child

A little music recommendation :3 quite catchy!

S.J. Tucker – Firebird’s Child
Album: Blessings

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[Family Recipe] Potato Dumplings

My silesian great-grandmother brought this recipe with her to germany in the late 1800s, beginning 1900s, where we later called it “polish dumplings”.

Depending on how many people you want to feed you’ll need to adjust the amounts of potatoes.

In general:

1 part uncooked potatoes
1 part cooked potatoes

The uncooked potatoes go into a blender in order to be put into a dishcloth afterwards. Great-grandma did it with a grater but I want to spare you that 馃槈 We want to get most of the water out of the mass and you will have to press it with a lot of power.
The cooked potatoes need to be mashed and mixed with the uncooked potato mass.
Put flour on your work surface and form dumplings in the size up to a fist.
Cook for 15-20 minutes in salt water. When the dumplings are ready they’ll聽 come up to the water surface.

Perfect for yule or christmas eve or whatever occasion you see fit for a feast 馃槈

These dumplings are very rich, but fear not, they’re even better the next day. You can just cut them into pieces and roast them in a pan, together with onions 馃檪

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[Documentary][GER]Jul und Asatru in Island

Have a merry yuletide, everyone!

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That one almost killed me xD



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Yule plans

Only 9 days left until yule!


Since I love to stick to family traditions (and expand them to a certain extent) I basically do the same every year. Eating good food, visiting family and friends, sharing gifts and enjoy the winter time. I love to play some funny pagan christmas songs like:


which are totally kitschy and cringy but I really don’t care and love them anyway 馃榾

My traditional food for yule would be a turkey hen with potato dumplings, red cabbage, gravy and some sweet dessert, after a family recipe we follow for longer that I’m alive now. I might share this here in case someone is searching for a new tradition to start 馃槈 By the way all the vegetarians and vegans can also skip the bird. This meal is enough to fill your belly without eating somebody else.

For me celebration starts at December 21st which is technically solstice and it goes on to the 24th wich is celebrated with family and friends who don’t necessarily happen to be pagan. Present-exchanging goes on, as well as eating too many sweets, listening to music, watching something on TV, talking and laughing, basically very casual, no naked rituals, no blood, no animal sacrifices (except for the turkey hen which doesn’t count since it’s usually dead already when we bring it home 馃槢 ). I like to keep my spirituality private so there’re no wild public celebrations.

Before yule celebrations start I love to clean the house to get rid of the past year’s junk.

We do have a yule tree which is exactly decorated like a christmas tree, there’re always some little angels hidden within the twigs symbolizing our christian friends.

Depending on how much we have to give ourselves I also like to make little donations to random people or animal shelters.

And when all the hustle and bustle is over and I find some spare time I’ll retreat into a park or forest, spending some time outside in the cold, getting refreshed and preparing for a new year filled with adventures.

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[Music] Damh the Bard – Green and Grey


I don’t know what it is about Damh the Bard that makes me listen to his music mostly in winter 馃榾

Definitely a recommendation! Currently listening to the album The Cauldron Born* 馃檪



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The internet is filled with us people who have fallen victim to bullies either in their childhood, their teens or even as grown-ups. I’m no singular phenomenon although I felt like one back then.

I am aware that probably zero people of my past learned anything else than that you can get away with bullying, no matter what you say. And since I preferred not to beat the living shit out of them I think it’s just natural.

You can have different approaches to cope with childhood bullying after you finally grew up. I learned to embrace my inner weirdo and the honesty with which I’m obviously weird is something that makes me believable as a person.

Somewhere along the path I chose to be me instead of catering to other peoples ideas how I should be to be more likeable. I did not choose to be overweight back then, but I chose to be open about my love of computer games, anime, programming, tv series and my choice of clothes. I chose to cheer up others who got bullied as well, instead of going for the cheap laughs and making fun of them too. And hell did I look aweful with my boyish haircut, my dad’s old leather jacket, plaid pants and skater boy pullovers. But there was nothing else to wear for me and I didn’t care at all. Everyday clothes were (and are still) a tool to prevent freezing for me. But things like that make you an outcast. After leaving elementary school I had already lost hope to find friends and my new school mates sensed that of course.

The first thing they thought appropriate was making fun of my weight, which was disappointing since I had already gone through that for three years, while I didn’t even have a concept in my mind for differently shaped bodys. I did not compare myself with others until then.

In conclusion I must have thought something along the lines of “If what I am is insufferable, with all the聽unobtrusive hobbies of mine, I could as well be extra and exaggerate.” So I went from overweight and weirdly dressed to overweight, weirdly dressed, tattooed, pierced, lost weight over time, went gothic, dyed my hair orange and became a bit louder. I think in my case I just was the perfect victim at the right spot and the bullying had nothing to do with the actual me being actually unlikeable. People love me for the same old jokes I made over twenty years ago, when I got flamed for them. I still am me.

I remember a really skinny boy in my class being explicitly disturbing, screaming I should die already from the top of his lungs right in my face. It was very obvious that he projected something onto me and that it was his brain actually screaming for some sort of relief. And still kids shouldn’t be confronted with such a severe dysfunctionality.

Later in my life I did go to a class reunion but all I saw was representation, fake smiles, stress, irritation. And amongst all this me, being the hippie girl with feathers in my hair. In another blog I wrote that I chose not to be part of the group and an anonymous person, obviously somebody from my past, claimed that choosing not to be a part of the group might have been my problem all along. I never really responded to that, but here I will:

I’ve had my closure with you guys, I really did. You were part of my way and some of you were more pleasant than others, who chose to be arseholes just because they could. I chose not to, although I could have. There were moments when people annoyed me that much that I just literally flipped their tables over them leaving them shocked that I was able to do that, with the only thing protecting them from a broken nose being my own rational self. After having tried so much, for so long, it’s liberating to realize that there is no obligation to fit in. And it’s even more liberating realizing that the things I got bullied for are actual genuinely positive traits I could help people achieve their lifegoals with. For every single insult you threw at me I’m going to make another person happy. Maybe I went a bit overboard with it when I decided to become this grumpy fairy, posting tons of pictures and articles, accumulating more than 3000 people in total who like what I do. Call it overcompensating if you like. I don’t look into the mirror, seeing doubt and confusion anymore. From the first moment I walked into the class room my place in class was fixed. There was no choice to be made, I did not choose not to belong. It was the circumstances that led to me being the bullet sponge for you and you gladly took the opportunity to come to terms with problems that had nothing to do with me, but with puberty hitting hard. It was dangerous what you did, in many ways. And it still is. But after so much time has passed you lost the ability to harm me, even if you wanted. I have seen things, done things, far bigger than getting bullied at school by a few kids having typical kids issues. So no, you’re wrong. My issue was not that I didn’t want to belong from the start. On the contrary. It was the long sought-after solution.


In case you come to the conclusion you made me what I am and that bullying can influence people positively, taking me as an example for your crude theory:

Fuck you. Fuck you in particular, you retarded piece of worthless excrement.

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And how about UFOs? Are they real?

Oh boy.

Well since the 11th season of the x-Files is approaching soon (January 3rd!) I thought I could tackle this topic a bit.

And of course there are UFOs, unidentified flying objects. They are real but not necessaly operated by extraterrestrial beings coming from some million lightyears away. Basically everything you see in the sky you cannot identify is a UFO. But that’s not the question. You want to know if I believe in aliens that visit us, abduct people and cut pieces out of cattle.

The universe is huge. The part of the universe we can see is peanuts compared to the part we cannot see. This part is hidden from us because the light hasn’t traveled to us yet. While we can easily get the impression that light is travelling endlessly quick, the speed of light is limited to about 300 000 km per second. For our brains this is quick enough to make us think we see things instantly, right at the same time as they exist. But every photon that reaches our eyes shows us the past. So if we see a star that is 100 lightyears away from us we see an image that is 100 years old because the light needed 100 years to travel this far, hence the name. That’s a problem.

A civilisation like ours likely looks out into and listens to the universe if there are signals to be caught from other civilisations. And if these signals are to be caught, we will likely get messages from beings that are millions of years old and quite outdated. At least from what we know today how signals travel.

For an alien civilisation to visit us they must have overcome said speed problem. While photons, the particles that light consists of, are able to travel with the speed of light, they’re only able to do so because they have no mass. They weigh nothing. An UFO weighs something, at least from what we understand them to be: Spaceships carrying alien lifeforms or computer operated devices. And as soon as something weighs something it cannot reach the speed of light anymore without needing an endless supply of energy. That’s what this E=m*c虏 thing is about. By “endless supply of energy” I don’t mean “very much” or “a huge ass amount”, I mean literally endless. The faster an object goes, the heavier it gets. You can easily imagine that by driving against an elephant wit 1, 5 or 200 mph. The faster you go, the stronger the impact on your car will be. Alien lifeforms visiting us must have solved this problem. Obviously we still don’t have. At this moment we’re not even able to bring a person to the moon, although we did once. Yes, we went to the moon once. I don’t care for your physically incorrect youtube-theories you found once during a beer-infused night where a computer generated voice claimed we didn’t.

But I’m quite positive that there are indeed things happening in this universe we don’t know of and they’ll probably make forward time travelling possible, which would be necessary to visit us. A lot of crazy shit already happened, like matter developing from literally nothing but the potential of matter developing. Like the universe said “Let’s say it may be possible a part of an atom spawns here and give it a likelihood of so-and-so percent to actually appear.” That’s how physics work. It’s awkward, I know.

So with the problem of transportation out of the way alien lifeforms may also have a bunch of social problems to solve to be actually able to evolve into a race that’s able to journey to the stars. That’s a thing we didn’t do either. Because let’s face it: We still have wars going on over whose invisible friend has the biggest junk and about who may own the most of a poisonous substance we use to fuel our engines with and we know for sure this substance isn’t making life on earth any better except for those who have it. Not saying we are monkeys in shoes, but… we are.

So the more I thought about this the more I came to the conclusion it gets unlikelier that aliens do visit us all the time, abduct people, appear in the night sky and such things. But here’s the thing:

It’s not impossible. I’m not a fan of these theories claiming the ancient egyptians weren’t remotely able to build the pyramids without extraterrestrial help. That’s merely a concept to sell books with but has nothing to do with reality. We definitely should stop belittling our ancestors like that because this obstructs research more than any government conspiracy usually does. And we should simply stop seeing UFOs in every single depiction of a winged penis. If we substract all the fraud and the overeager claims from the whole mass, we have a lot less of a mess of sightings and incidents left. And if we then substract all aerial phenomena that are explainable, all the secret government weapon testing there’s even less left. And if we then concentrate on these cases that were definitely not explainable by modern day technology we could work things out more efficiently.

I do believe there are all sorts of beings out there, from living slime to humanoids. But I cannot say if either of these voluntarily visited us. It’s okay believing we are not alone these days. Back in my days, before the internet, it wasn’t. You got heavily laughed at for such theories, only to find the things you said in tv documentaries twenty years later. Things change. And I think we’re gonna find out the truth. Or we won’t. 馃槈

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In January 2017 I had no clue what this year would have in store for me.
Now, at the beginning of December there are 2666 people following me on instagram, compared to 442 at the beginning of the year.
More than 2600 people wanting to partake in my fantastic world of myths and magic. And you guys become more and more each day, honestly I have no idea where you’re actually coming from 馃榾

But one thing I know for sure: I love my work, making people happy with what you do and create every single day is huge privilege.

For 2018 I promise to you better, bigger and more epic projects, the preparations have already started!

I wish you all a happy yuletide!

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Oh gawd why! Please no!! xD

Literally. I can’t 馃榾

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A Prayer of the pissed off witch

A Prayer of the modern pissed off witch

Lord and Lady grant me the
power of Fire to, burn the ass
of the stupid individual.

The power of Air, to help
them fly off the top
of a very tall building.

The power of Water, to wash
my hands after choking the
hell out of them.

The power of Earth, to bury
the body so it can never
be found.

As I will it, so mote it be!

(found on instagram)

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Do you believe in ghosts?

First of all: I love science. I love it so much that I listen to astrophysic documentaries while trying to sleep. At the age of 12 I had read some books about surgery and bought several encyclopedias about medicine, astronomy, and basically everything that helped me writing my little stories I loved to write. You guessed it right, I’m a huge nerd 馃槈

So? Do you believe in ghosts?

Absolutely yes. I believe the spirits or souls of the dead can visit us, spend time with us, try to communicate, be assholes, try to scare you shitless, appear out of thin air and move objects.

But how does that go together?

Well! Let’s start at the beginning, shall we?
When I was young, around the age of two or three, I had the feeling some places of my family’s flat were dangerous. Dangerous not like in “there’re knives and fire and poison” but more as in “you need to get past the space in front of the mirror quickly or something will happen”. These spots weren’t specifically spooky or dark, not even decorated with things I hated. It was more like an immanent feeling of “something scary will happen” with nothing obvious ever triggering it at that time. I grew older and at the age of 4 or 5 I got said feeling while lying in bed. Night terrors aren’t that uncommon and don’t necessarily mean there’re ghosts going around, but at that age I never woke my parents up screaming or crying, I just developed some sort of taboo, not wanting to look at certain areas in the room at night, which was very instinct-driven. So I kept my face under the blanket while sleeping in my parents bed. During the day, the dangerous areas changed, it was always making me nervous going into my parents bedroom but I still did it. I was no anxious child, I loved to run around and the only thing I feared was heights. Other than that I was a stuntman, coming home with bloody knees and elbows all the time because going too quick on a scooter was too much fun 馃槈 I never had this certain feeling outside of our flat. It seemed bound to it, but nothing supernatural happened to me until I reached the age of 6 or 7. After that event happened I felt even more cautious and thought things would get even more stressful for me. I felt restricted. It was the following event that made me feel like that:

One night, while lying in my parents bed again, because that’s what you like as a kid, I woke up and saw the bedroom door slowly getting shoved open. It was a big figure, walking slouched while limping. At first I thought it was my dad because he had had a knee surgery before and walked in a similar manner, but quicker. I watched the figure walking around the bed, going to my dad’s side and sitting down. At that point I realized that the bed didn’t move or squeak like usual. There was no weight when the figure sat and finally lay down. After a few moments I gathered all my courage together and asked “Dad?” into the darkness but nothing happened, he just started snoring after a few moments. This, indeed, scared me shitless because that of which I had been afraid the whole time now had shown itself, I thought. I hadn’t grasped the concept of actual ghosts outside the television and only knew the archetypical funny ones like Casper or ones from black & white movies, which didn’t scare me at all. I really liked movies with聽 zombies, monsters and ghosts which were suitable for children, like the Addams Family or the Munsters. But the things going on outside the TV were definitely different and I didn’t connect TV fantasies and reality with eachother, I never did.

From then on the spook intensified until we moved out. One time tableware in the kitchen clashed in the cupboard, and the most aggressive incident was a loud noise like a pistol shot accompanied with dangling easter decoration spread across the room as if someone pulled on both vases filled with twigs and shot at the same time, plus moving a decorative glass pane with minerals like amethysts and agates so that it started swinging from side to side in the window. By this time, my mother and grandmother had already witnessed strange occurances and this special incident scared us three.

By the time I got 10 – 11 my mother told me the flat had been extra cheap because an old lady had died in it. In the flat next door someone had committed suicide and people also had died in the doctor’s office on our floor. At that time I already had started reading tons of stuff about parapsychology. I had come to the conclusion that nobody knew anything exact, but weird stuff happened which people had no explanation for. We moved flats and the feeling of being afraid receded, but came back once in a while at night. I then tried to switch on the light with the button directly installed next to my bed but the lamp wouldn’t react for some reason, no matter how often I switched the button on. After a while the feeling faded and the light could be switched on again. This happened at least every other week. I had read more books and came across an article, that stated ghosts liked to spook around children, especially girls, who started to hit puberty, which to some extend is the case when you reach the age of 9 or 10. So there I sat, stuck with spook which wouldn’t leave me alone.

On several occasions I had the feeling that “the unexplainable” liked to follow my family. While on vacation my godfather died and the day he died a dinner tray just fell down from the kitchen counter to the floor with nobody ever having touched it. He and my grandmother had been heavily into astrology and while he had studied it in Switzerland he brought my grandma some of his books for her to read while they were younger.

For the sake of readability I’m gonna skip some events but maybe you read of them on my instagram feed.

When I first had a flat of my own I owned a white woolen jacket. I laid it onto my bed to get ready, went under the shower, did some stuff and when I returned the jacket was gone. Vanished into thin air. I looked for it everywhere. Around the bed, in my wardrobe, in every room, in my then-boyfriend’s room but it was gone. I sat down at my computer, started doing some early-internet stuff, turned around after twenty minutes and there it was again, lying on the bed as if nothing happened, which was creepy because I had even flipped the mattress because I was quite sick of such events. Around that time I came to terms with my pagan path a bit and investigated into wicca and witchcraft, but I took everything i read with a grain of salt because of my love of science and I knew esoteric literature was often nothing more than a mere scam. But still I found something useful. One book read, that when you get bothered by a ghost you might want to try insulting it really badly with the worst words you know, suggesting laughing at and taunting it.

So one day I stayed at my parents’ and the strap of one of the blinds started dangling without anybody having touched it. It wasn’t in front of the heater and there was no window open. I saw this movement from the corner of my eye and started swearing at it, and if I can do one thing on this planet it’s swearing like it makes sailors blush.聽 What happened next was a bit unexpected for me but I was pleased with the outcome. The dangling just stopped from one moment to the other. Normally you would have thought why should there be ghosts anyway in the new flat? Did the old lady really follow you? Why should she? But no. Right under my window, before the street had been converted a bit, was the place a window cleaner had died some years ago. I was there with my grandma, walking past the place of accident but changing the side of the street because my grandma didn’t want me to see a dead body at the age of 5 while going to my ballet lessons.

The day my grandma died, a bottle of shampoo or hairspray just fell out of the shelf as if something had pushed it. And when I had a very dark day a couple of days ago, a random net filled with sea shells was pushed out of the shelf above me while sitting motionless at the computer. Pushing things out of shelves seems to be a thing in my family. Funnily these incidents didn’t cause any fear at all.

Of course these incidents are in no way proof that there are actual ghosts going around spooking. But some of the things that happened to us are very unlikely explainable with common laws of physics, even with taking into account things like ball-lightning, mass hallucination聽and random fluctuations of density exist and cause weird phenomena the everyday person knows jack shit about.

And how do you combine these two now?

I must admit I feel like I got used to it. Noises from the kitchen cause me to shout “Don’t you ever shut up?” instead of triggering fear in me. Stuff vanishing into thin air makes me go “If my shit doesn’t appear within 10 minutes I’m gonna stuff you with sage from behind and light your head on fire like a smudge stick!” instead of panicking. And over the years it got less. So I had more time to think about what happened. I learned things like quantum theories exist and that memories in our brains are stored with the help of electricity, although we don’t know for certain how it works. And I have a certain feeling that ghost phenomena can be connected with energy (the physical energy, not the esoterical one) and matter, which are basically the same at the end. Energy cannot be destroyed and when a body dies, this energy needs to go somewhere. And I like the thought that this sort of energy, which some may call soul, sticks together for a while or for eternity to be reincarnated, with new souls developing and old souls getting annihilated with the energy floating away, probably connecting to other emerging souls at that time. Not that this is a valid theory of mine. It’s definitely not. But I like thinking of things being like that just for my personal enjoyment. Because who doesn’t like their loved ones around them?

Have a nice day everyone 馃檪

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[Video] Muslim Vikings and Magic Letters – Runes


I know I’m sharing a lot of videos but that’s what my blog is about. Sharing my findings with you guys and promoting a good mix of fun and learning 馃槈

Here we go with this interesting video I found. It’s about the runes, where they came from, how they were used and who used them when!


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[Video] Top 5 Slavic Folklore Creatures

Since I’m part slavic, my great grandparents came from Silesia, I like to go astray from my path a bit and explore the slavic realms of mythology. I also started to learn a bit of russian, but please don’t make me say anything xD

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[Video] A crash course in norse mythology!

Hey, look what I dug up! I gotta check out their whole channel now because this video about the norse pantheon and how all is put together is promising!

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Are you against Christians?

Well that’s a question I got several times now. And no, I’m not. That’d be outrageously stupid to be against people just because of their religion, wouldn’t it?

I am aware though that there are christians out there that would like to convert me or see me convert to their faith or just reject me because I’m an infidel but here’s the thing. I never met one of them in person or was attacked by them in the real life, outside the internet. Lucky me! There’s a lot of christian mythology I love because I grew up with it, hearing bible stories as well as germanic or oriental stories. I attended catholic religious education and never felt out of place. And I think it has a lot to do with how you’re brought up and how you treat people in the first place.

I’d never go around taunting people for what they believe in. If any, I make harmless jokes, and I carefully watch to whom I tell them in order to not offend anyone because I wouldn’t want to get offended myself.

The churches have their own fair share of problems with all the scandals, child molestation, hoarding money and what not. But I don’t feel I should accuse your normal-every-day-neighborhood-christian for all of that since he or she simply isn’t responsible for that. And if said person lives by moral standards which make them do good, how could I ever be nasty to them?

Sure. There’re these stories out there of harmless gothic kids that got harassed and shunned by ultra-christian people because they look weird to them. But can I lump all christians together then? No. I met wonderful people who happened to be christian.

So while a lot of pagan people claim stuff like “life isn’t black and white, you need to view everyone individually, you shouldn’t treat someone badly just because of their faith” it doesn’t seem to apply to christians for them. Maybe because they need an enemy so urgently, that they willingly overthrow their own principles, probably only for the sake of bitching.

So no, I’m definitely not against christians. 馃檪

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I don’t care who started it, I’m the one who’s gonna end it!

At least I try to be as often as possible.

Talking ’bout bullying.

I have looked into several versions of the abyss of the human mind, from different perspectives. I was the one to be bullied as a child for not conforming to the other kid’s expectations, but I also turned onto them and let them feel what it is like to be inferior in a certain field or profession. And as I grew older, collected more and more experience, learned about the complexity of everybody’s lives, I started to more and more despise this behaviour and intervene whenever I came across it. Luckily I don’t have a lack of confidence anymore, so that attempts to bully me or my friends don’t intimidate me anymore.

We have to differentiate something. On the one hand, a certain hierarchy amongst children is key to findig your place in life. You get to experience that there are nice and mean people, you learn whom to avoid, how to cope with rejection, whom to trust, and how to handle treachery. You get tempted to do all the bad stuff yourself, to bitch about your teachers or the new kid in class, and to accumulate so much anger that you want to engage in a stalwart fistfight. All these things are human, important parts of your development and missing out on some of these may lead to you having a deficit in interacting with others.

And sometimes, keeping the hierarchy intact is a very rewarding thing. Let’s say a new kid聽 comes into class one morning and you know nothing about him. That’s a potentially dangerous situation! Not dangerous as in “life threatening” but more as in “he might take over my place and my friends”. So the first thing you’d do is shooing him away. If you do it right, people may laugh about your comments and join in on the fun. And since everybody likes a good bit of fun, soon the whole class will partake in this. Some will want to overtrump others in order to get more and more laughs and from there on it’s a downwards spiral for said new kid.

Then bullying is a natural thing right?
Yes. In a way. But hurricanes and cancer are too, you know. Not having the right to make another person’s life a living hell is a thing most children won’t care about. They’re more driven by their impulses than by consideration. And some even may simply not care about others’ feelings at all, probably because they have never been in a position where they were rejected before. Or get rejected all the time at home.

So how to avoid bullying?
I don’t think there’s a chance bullying will ever go away. But you can prevent some of the potential harm by strengthening your kids’ self-esteem. Teaching them that it’s completely okay to be interested in stuff others aren’t interested in, to play boys’ sports as a girl, to go to ballet as a boy, to pursue a career aside from medicine or law. Kids with greater self-esteem won’t suffer that much from bullying than kids without. And self-esteem prevents kids from bullying others because they genuinely believe their place within the hierarchy is assured.

Of course you will encounter others with a great self-esteem, who still are big bullies. That’s the downside of theories, they don’t apply to each and everyone. So encourage your kids to also seek help if they’re attacked, and even fight back if necessary. Preparing it for the real world and making sure it can defend itself is part of your job of protecting it.

Especially when you’re a heathen family you may come across some prejudices. And being confident is key to dealing with problems that may arise from such things.

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In Odin we trust :D

In Odin we trust | Illvanno

And sometimes I make my friends into memes, just for shits and giggles 馃榾

In case you want to visit my good friend Marcel you can do it on Facebook聽or Instagram.

Love doing these little photo edits, it’s always fun to see what you can do with these digital tools like Photoshop. 馃檪

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The Rescue!


Look at the epic the guys at Kaptorga are capable of producing!

So much love and thought went into this, the villain even has filed teeth! (Hope he didn’t really do that xD )

Hope you enjoy! 馃檪

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[Music] Frozen “Let it go” – Male voice cover

This guy’s cover is everything right now 馃槈

I have a big weak spot for fairy tales. Fall and winter war the perfect times to listen to some tapes or watch movie adaptions of your favorite stories 馃檪

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The trade license is real since yesterday 鉂
An entry at the Chamber of Trades will follow.

This is going to be an epic journey and I’m happy to have you guys accompanying me! There’s still a lot to do, a lot to buy, a lot to pay, a lot to learn – and no matter what tries to step into my way, no matter who tries to undermine my quest, I will fight and I will overcome these obstacles, even if their asses sat in an agency protected by doors and letterheads, stalking my shit on the internet trying to find ways to crush me like they did with so many before.
Not this time. Not this bitch.
My silicone for making molds arrived, aswell as a ring mandrel, some chemicals for generating patina, some very exact exacto-knives, some pyrography tools, soap stone, several rasps and my polishing agent. I’m looking forward to the next weeks, as there’ll be a lot of crafting! The little bronze newt I made will get his wooden box stuffed with a red satin pillow in order to arrive safely at his new home by the way!
Let’s make this world a better place piece by piece, spreading beautiful things, encouraging eachother and being creative. It’s about time, with so much darkness arising on the horizon.

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[Movies] The Secret of Kells

I recently re-discovered this trailer for the movie “Brendan and the Secret of Kells” and got a bit obsessed with it 馃槈 I probably need a copy of the Book of Kells, too!


For all who are not familiar with the movie: It’s a beautiful story about Brendan, a boy who lives in an irish abbey in the 8th century. As he is sent to collect plant parts for the making of ink he encounters a forest dwelling spirit who saves him from a hungry pack of wolves and so the story unfolds. As you can imagine, his uncle, the abbot, is not amused with him leaving the abbey…

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